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Saturday, August 30, 2008

quality;quantity

hey[: the word of today is quality and quantity; and follow law and don't follow law[: everytime surely got word of the day one.haha [: well in the morning is follow law and don't follow law. after lunch, we went to RSC to buy pizza. we have to spend if not they well charge us which my parents don't like.so we bought 3 pizzas. 2 larger which are peporoni and haiwaian. 1 small haiwaian pizza. and 5 pieces of garlic bread. sounds alot? hell yeah it is. we over odered. ate until boleh muntah leh. freaking full..

okayy next. what happen. oh yeah. went up to my brother's room. to use the computer [: then i went online. hmm. not much to chat. cause tak banyak orang online. tak nice]: then i went check my friendster. then my brother so funny. he crack so many jokes.haha.i lovee him man!

okayy then dinner time.. so parents and uncle talking about something.so i said must have quality mah. not wuantity. so they start using it..haha.then i told my brother about my form teacher saying about our essay that she wants quality not quantity,haha.so ate crab [: mm-yummy[: i was so extremly full.ah!todayy was a full day.. haha [:

happy birthdayy andrea[: happy sweet 15 birthdayyy [:

oh yeahh. 10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1,0!!tink tink tink!

it's 12o'clock

HAPPY MERDEKA

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xoxo

ashleylicious

11:17 PM

Friday, August 29, 2008

enjoyable day

woo hoo! thanks caridee for the tickets [: haha..wen han ar.. you really ar. we give you massage also don't want. anyway.today in school, we celebrated the merdeka early cause merdeka on sunday, tak ada school. so well. we went down to the assembly hall. then they gave speeches then cikgu gave a very nice speech [: although his speech is boring, but the end is so freaking nice[: MERDEKA MERDEKA MERDEKA! haha i remeber when cikgu shouted merdeka, everyone was shock haha. yi tane(mei) got scared of that. cause she was thinking about something. suddenly cikgu shouted.haha [: oh yeah, before we went down, me, yi tane, poh yee and jia xin. we were running up and down the stairs. for what ar? forgot adi haha[: then we took photo. but tak berjaya cause we in hurry. you know la, after everyone complian.lalala. haha[:

so when we were supposed to sing TANGGAL 31, KERANA MU MALAYSIA & JALUR GEMILANG. so what happen when we sand TANGGAL 31, we were so hyper so we forgot the lyrics, then we gather together into one circle and shouted.i mean the MERDEKA part in the song la. then we were extremely hyper. then the KERANA MU MALAYSIA, we also forgot so we just said. lalalalala. all the way. then someone's bottle fell and then i started to change the lyrics by like erm. the bottle fell and we are so hyper. something like that la. haha. JALUR GEMILANG leh we did the same as KERANAMU MALAYSIA singing lalala. then when the JALUR GEMILANG part came, we shouted so freaking loud.wow! haha [: oh yeah, before we sang me and yi tane went to the toilet to take some pictures. so after taking we fake flush then it was so difficult to press. so yi tane press extremely hard until it flush.when i flush, there's sound sounded like someone farted, we laugh until crazyy. haha [:

i went to tuition after school, apperently late.super late for it. like half an hour late.haha [: it's cause busy planing the transport to avril's concert.haha[: yeah i got to go. thanks to caridee[: i lovee youu[: so well.hahacame back from tuition, then went to comfirm with caridee the plan.well yeah.oh yeah get to go [: haha. so caridee came my house at 6:30 then she changed, then we head off to pick up caridee's cousin,shu hua, and wen han. so my sister followed.then when everyone was in the car.my sister's phone rang, it's to plan her hang out for tomorrow's merdeka thingy. so wen han heard and he ask me sister how she knows these people cause wen han knows them.haha.small world. then it rain. man unlucky us. but then for awhile we were lucky.it stopped raining. and then it was about lets say erm. 8. so the concert starts at 8 but then she came about 8:30 then all of us shouted AVRIL AVRIL AVRIL.then there's this guy shouted ANWAR then all of us( the free seating people) started to laugh.haha. then the lights suddenly went off. and poom! she started singing. wow! i scream so loud. caridee also.well we enjoyed.then some people nothing to do, go kacau me.haiyo!then we went back. and we gave wen han a massage by using the posters we got.then he started to defend himself by using his own poster.haha. that guy.haha.so funny! so then hmm we didn't had our dinner.well.what to do]: well some pictures we took in school with yi tane, poh yee and jia xin. and some with caridee and the concert. and some random one wen han with shu hua [:

okayy still got alot more. but too much. hehe [:

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xoxo

ashleylicious

6:14 PM

Thursday, August 28, 2008

life

life is full of sadness and happyness..i've been suffering from a sadness life.being hurt everyday.all i wanna do is just be happy for once.i maybe happy,but inside i may not be as cause my life have so many problems. life, there's friends you love, there's friends you hate, there's friends you trust, there's some you don't..i've been believing everyone equally,till this girl came in to my life and i started to trust her so much. everytime tell her secrets, and everything.but til one day she shouted at me saying that she shouldn't tell me a secret.and i turn away tearing. then soon, it got worst when the guy came. i saw him, and i turn away running away, trying to run from the problems.but i wasn't strong enough.and i started tearing.and that girl was so angry of me.i have no idea why.what have i done?everything's always my fault is it?all i ever did was to love you, trust you. but then you got so angryy.so i started crying.and yi tane(my mei) she went and told that guy that i'm angry and crying cause of him, and he answer that he doesn't care..i always wonder why you're like that.i gave you everything.

i've been running away from my problems, don't have anyone to talk too.but you came in my life.and i trusted y ou.but now you are so angry of me.what did i do to make you angry?this life is like a game.there's mystery,love,drama,hateness,happy times, sad times. but then i was strong when you're there for me. but now you're so angry of me. which i don't know why.i wanna know why are you so mad? i just can't believe your gone. i wonder why exactly. when that guy like my best friend.last time, both of them were angry of me. and now same thing. what have i done? all i wanna do is to have a happy life.enjoyable life.in the end.i'm hurt.is this a part of a plan?am i girl how has no feelings that's why you guys can just do anything to me? if you wanna hurt me so badly,then just use a knife instead of this game your having.

i'm waiting for you every day, night and morning. wake up and attend school cause you. cause of i have a life with friends. enjoy the day with friends.but now you're gone. i have no one. i'm in a lonely world.with no hope.no life.i wonder why are you like that.why are you angry? tell me why..please. i didn't do anything. if you like him.then tell.i won't be mad.i can let go. cause i will have support from yi tane. no worries.tell me the truth.. that guy have been apologizing.but do you mean it or cause i'm sad and that's all. hm..second chance? if you're asking for a second chance, are you telling the truth? i need to know the truth. please don't lie to me okay [: it's a difficult decision cause i was hurt once like this too. i've forgive you so many times. but why are you stil like that?why why why?i just one ordinary day with you. why can't i get that? okayy so that's life about. the person you trusted most may betray you first. ]: every story have an end,but in life every end is just a new begining

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xoxo

ashleylicious

7:14 PM

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

a life full of sadness around me

a life full of sadness around me now a days.why must be happen when it's close to UPSR? what did i do to deserve a life like this?can i still live in this world?should i?or shouldn't i?everyone i walk pass.they are just so happyy..but then.i'm not.but aren't i?my heart beats so fast whenever i see you smile.it beats faster when you are near.but it beats slow when i heard the news.it beats even slower like i'm gonna die when i actually know the truth.so.it shows.i'm not meant to be with you.and yet i've wasted my 1 year 2months and 13 days with you.been hurting other people's feeling cause of you,been crazy in love cause of you,been scolded cause of you,been hated cause of you..it was okay that time cause i didn't mind as i have you.but not anymore.

people been talking time flies.yeah it does.time flies,and your feelings change.i understand.i just wanna get my old life back. i don't know who is this girl anymore,she's not ASHLEY, she's not who she is, she not the girl that was always cheerful.now, she's the girl who is stupid,sad,hated. she cires every night in her dream, she's always hurt. who is this girl in the mirror i see? it's not ASHLEY. it's someone else.but who?people also says miricrale happens.yeah it does. it does. i used to believe in it but not anymore.i only have yi tane, caridee,samee, ch'ng xin, sabrina to believe in now.there's others.but i'm too lazy to list it out.time to let you go then ba. you like her, go like her, you want her go chase her.but don't come back to me and ask me to give you another chance. i won't. if i will, you'll know the reason why..as we go on, we'll remember, all the times we spend together. i think i'll remember only not you.!

hate my life! hate this world! hate everything! why am i sent down here?for?getting hurt?wow!it's a succes.. now. i think i better get out of this world soon.so you'll be happy.hmm.i think you'll forget me.but it's better isn't it?ah ha! good.okayy..

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xoxo

ashleylicious

8:35 PM

Saturday, August 23, 2008

heart broken

my heart was broken yesterdayy..but why must you do this?i didn't do anything..suddenly you were likee..asking for a stop..why must i suffer..you said it's cause you need to focus on your studies..but i don't think so..cause todayy you didn't even come to school..i think it's cause about what i told you about what my parents mention about youu..well..if you care about that so much..you've broken my heart..you've make my heart so weak..

this morning actualy don't intend to go to school cause of youu..but i just woke up..i still couldn't open my eyes yet..but i said to myself..i need to be strong to face him..so i open my eyes..then i was feeling about ill..feeling likee i'm frezzing..so i didn't care.i went to school..and i was like so cold..i felt like i was an ice cube..so i control it..till recess..i stand under the sun so i won't fel so cold..and i saw david playing football..hmm not bad..okayy anyway..so i went back up to class..i was cold again..and then the next recess, my friend got a letter..and i was reading then suddenly i was like OMG! then wilson quickly ran down and shouted..the letter from **one ar?so i was like angry.cause i thought it is okayy cause ** didn't come to school and i didn't need to face him..but he mention the name out..so i was likee..urgh! get the name out of my head..but i can't..every single minute..a voice in my head is like calling his name..urgh!

at night

i went out with my parents to pick my brother up..so i was like frezzing cold..then we went and had a drink..i was like super frezzing cold..but i didn't tell my mum yet..and plus my tigh hurts..so i was like..why am i so unlucky?why must it be me..so i said..okayy..ASHLEYY YOU GOTTA BE STRONG..DON'T GET AFFECTED WITH THIS THING....so i'm trying to be strong now..

I never knew love like this, I finally opened up my eyes.And I hope it lasts forever, cuz I'd walk a thousand milesJust to feel like this, I never knew love like this..but now..my hope is all gone.. i'm from someone..to nobodyy..i rather be like this]:

i love a song by amy pearson.. i wish i was like her.. it's nice.[: here's the lyrics..

Always knew that when we said goodbye

It wouldn't last forever

Always thought that I'd run into you

And we'd get back together........

Now you're hereJust like I imagined

But never once did it cross my mind

That you could move on.......

You've found someone

It breaks my heart

Cuz you're so in love

[Chorus]I wish that my touch

Makes you smile just like that

And I wish that I had youthe way that she has

Cuz I still remember the loveI left behind

Oh I wish I was her

And you were mine

I think somebody's try'na to talk to me

But I can't hear a word they're sayin

All I can do is stare at you

I dont even know why I'm stayin

Never thought, I'd cry to see you Happy

Its Just I Thought that your happiness

Was right here with meI know were through

It's no useStill I cant help but feel.....

.[Chorus]I wish that my touch

Makes you smile just like that (make you smile like that)

And I wish that I had you

The way that she has you (the way that she has)

Cuz I still remember the loveI left behind (I left behind)

Oh I wish I was her And you were mine

[Chorus]The way that she has you (oh)I wish that was me (I wish that was me)

There's no place on earth

That I'd rather be (rather be)

Cuz I still remember the loveI left behind

Oh I wish I was her

And you were mineI used to be right beside you (oh no)

Now I'm not even kept inside your heart (oh no)

I put our love upon a shelf

But now it's goneCuz you belong to someone else.......

[Chorus]I wish that my touch

Makes you smile just like that (I wish I was her)

And I wish that I had you

The way that she has you (the way that she has you babe)

Cuz I still remember the loveI left (I Left Oh I Left Behind)

Oh I wish I was her (I wish I was her)

And you were mine (oh I wish you were mine)

Oh I wish that were me (Oh I Wish That Was Me)

There's no place On earth

That I'd rather be (That I'd Rather Be)

Cuz I still remember the loveI left behind

Oh I wish I was her

And you were mine

Oh...oooo

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xoxo

ashleylicious

12:18 AM

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

holidayy hang out

well... it's a school holidayy but we have school..but today is our day of.carin and i slept at 12 last night..woke up very early at 8:30..have no idea why wanna wake up so earlyy..well.we chat and chat til it was about hmm..9?! i guess..next thing..we went and shower..of course right..haha

after that..we went onlinee..we check our friendster..and then we log out..then hmm..we were so bored so we editted photos..so carin's blog the "best friend ring" we edit.. and my blog the music and the rose we edit..okayy..after that we saw someone to chat to which is ben jing.so we chat and chat and chat..then suddenly carin wanna see the video that yf made for me..so ask ben jing for the name..wel..ain't gonna tell you the name..hehe [: after we saw the video..i was like: why not we mke a video?" then carin was like okayyy.. so we tried and tried.we still don't really know..we onlyy know how to put the text and the song..so we tried..suddenly my mum came home..so we quickly went in my room and change to go to hang out..so my mum was like: ASHLEY!ARE YOU READY?..so i said: wait not yet..caqrin changing and i haven't.."then she was like: NO WAITING LA!!!!FASTER!! so i rush in and quickly change..

hmmm..then reached there...supposed to meet my brother and aaron to comfirm what time to go home..well...aaron got angry and scolded carin..but luckily my brother handle everything..so we went and meet the boys..end up yew fei saw my sis and my sis saw yew fei..omg!arrr..

okayy..so we went shakeys..but didn't eat..carin an i went big apple ate the doughnut..mmm-yummy..haha.ater that..we went shopping..books shopping..then only clothes shopping..then after that.yew fei ask where we wanna go..then i said..i knoww..i ce- cream time..since you haven't belanjar me..hehe [:then he was ..okayy laa..haiz..alot of things happen..but not gonna list out..haha[:

then carin's mum invited my brother and i for dinner to celebrate aaron's birthdayy[:
we went to SAKE SUSHI...ate alot there..yummy food..[: well then we went back and cut cake..before we cut cake..carin and i canwhore...but haven't upload the pictures yet la..my god..the flash is like making my eyes wanna come out..haha[: an we took until we have no air like that..ahah..then celebrate..sang song..then carin and i walk aroung the neighbour hood.she introdue to me all the neighbour..but i still can't remember..hehe [: bad memory..getting old here..so well..hmm..yup..then the father send me back..haiz one day gone..the next day nidda go to school...

anyway..happy sweet 14 birthday aaron!
hmm no picture of him.. ]:

okayy la..

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xoxo

ashleylicious

7:01 PM

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

a day i'll never forget

omg! todayy..
school..sean's place...then we ate pizza..saw lee lao shi there..
gosh..lucky she didn;t marah us![:continue.. we went to sean's place..played with the hamsters..
damn!they are so adorable and cute [:

volleyball
when we were walking to school..
sean was holing his footbal..suddenly..the ball slipped out of his hands.wow!
then sean ran over and we followed..lucky no cars la..if not mati..okayy..during volleybal.
not many people came..we played game..carin, collin and i one team..the other 5 plus yang lao shi 6..one team.but turn out 3 against 3..cause the three people behind..didn't playy..

home
came back hoome..
strainght away ran up..with carin.oh yeah! carin is staying over my house [:
so..went up..we were supposed to shower but we organize our hang out first..cause more important la..so we call everyone..cal here..call there..haiz..call and end up 2 guys only can go.haiz..

homework
well..carin is doing her homework..and i'm supposed to find my "zuo wen" in the internet cause can't find in the book..so i went online..then tim..was online/..he mention something about the avril's concert..and said that the sis could help to get..but suddenlyy..a big NO came out!arhh!anyway..he was so depress..over something..private [: so well..i talked to him..but he doesn;t believe a single word i say..but it's all true..deep down inside..i'm really teling him the truth..

mixed up
well carin and i got mixed up..cause zheng yang.. aka zy was online so we said hi..and he answered..as usal.then suddenly he ask why is carin using my account?then carin was like erm..cause in ashley's house..then he was like owh..for what?then we say not gonna tell you..then he said that is it for project?then carin said:" no la..for fun only..the other part..ain't gonna tell you" so suddenly zy was like to go out..then me and carin got suspicious..cause he was talking broken english..and yet how he knows about it..and some more he never calls me ash only wilson..so we were like..you are wilson ..aren;t you?then he was like no no no..so we said..prove it by calling me(ashley)..then he was like no need la...then zy sms me..saying..prove girls.then we called but it was off..then we called the second time.,only the phone was on..and he answer.. we were like..we don't believe is you one la!so fake..don;t lie la! then we ask him why he of the phone after he sms me.so we were very suspicious about it..so we kept on saying that he was wilson..in the end..we said we'll explain about the phone thing on thursdayyy..cause we explain and explain and yet he doesn;t knows..so we gave up..then that's all lor..

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xoxo

ashleylicious

11:37 PM

Monday, August 18, 2008

lost and gone

lost and gone lee chong wei's gold!

it's sad.but at least he got a sliver for us malaysia!

he tried his best but lin dan is just too good!

it's okay, it's alright,come on lee chong wei..

smile

train more?or get the skills?which one to beat him?both!

but it's okayy..we..malaysians are proud of you to be in the finals!

it's not easy to be champion!but it's nice if you smile all the way

and not showing the sadness or weakness in you [:

so smile [:

okayy..so todayy is a holidayy..

but i have to go to school..

well it's fun today in school.cikgu came in late for class..cause he thought it starts at 7:30 but it's actually starts at 7:20 [: cikgu, cikgu..!

anyway..

i gotta wish someone..

allysha! happy birthday to you

haapy sweet 14 birthday

hehe..she look so pretty[:

happy birthday to you,

happy birthday to allysha,

happy birthday to you [:

make a wish and blow the candles[:

enjoy your cake[:

leave la some for me..hehe..kidding [:

just wishing you

happy sweet 14 birthday

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xoxo

ashleylicious

7:25 PM

Sunday, August 17, 2008

early call

woke up early at 8:20..
cause ada volleyball training..
then got homee..tired..
no la..
during the trianing coach was really angry at one stage..
anywayy..
got home..
ate..ate dessert...
then come up..played some songs..played some games..
til i forgot to update my blog..
then here i am..but i have not much time to write as i am writting...
i wanna go down soon to watch badminton..
it's making my heart beat extremly fast!
so buh byee [:

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xoxo

ashleylicious

6:38 PM

Saturday, August 16, 2008

beat of my heart

listen to the beat of my heart..

what does it tells you?
let me tell you if you don't hear it..

it says that..
i'm trying to forget about you
i'm trying to forget about the pass..
i'm trying to find a way to get out of this world.
i'm trying to be in a world without love nor friendship
and i'm trying to move on!
deal with my heart beat.
cause that's what it wants.

AM GONNA START ALL OVER!
you made me wanna start all over again
you made me want to forget

It must have been something to send me out of my head
With the words so radical and not what I meant
Now I wait
For a break in the silence 'cause it's all that you left
Just me and these four walls again

It's hard now to let you be
I won't make excuses
I've made my peace
It didn't take long
For me to lose the trust'
Cause these four walls
We're not strong enough

this are what my heart tells me..everytimee..
it's like..we ain't strong enough.. ]:

can some one tell me..what does it mean to youuu??
please!?

i need help..
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

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xoxo

ashleylicious

3:36 PM

Friday, August 15, 2008

lee chong wei& joe jonas

LEE CHONG WEI

lee chong wei won!

wosh!

17th is the finals..

VS lin dan..

lee chong mesti menang..and make me and us, MALAYSIAN

proud..

if you bring back a gold medal for us..

you'll be a datuk,..

and plus..RICH!

i gotta meet youuuuu!!!

must..

so obsess...!!

JOE JONAS

happy birthday joe jonas!!

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xoxo

ashleylicious

10:07 PM

time to be me again

it's time for me to let my soul be whom i was..
be the girl which everyone hates..
and the girl..
who is a STUPID FOOL!!

but my soul gotta be in a place first before i will let it free..
the place is to be in a dream with perfect friendships.that's all..
and once the soul meets that dream..i may be the old me again!

okay so today what happen was that
first period starts off with "wu lao shi"
normally after science it would be the 6H class P.E
so normally i wil meet megan and carin on the way up when they are on the way down.haha
when i was walking up the stairs i saw nicholas teh..so i shouted at him."stupid nicholas"
well ever since when..er..i also dont know..this nicholas keep on like kacau me or try to trip me..
so ater i shouted that..he saw..and came running towards me..so i ran as fast as i could to go up the stairs.as he continues to chase me..then suddenly i stop then he was like running towards me then suddenly he slides..and went back down..offically weird![: but lucky i didn't kena any of his tricks or something [: wosh{:

and then during the period before recess we were supposed to write an eassy..
well teacher said if don't finish then cannot go recess..something like that..
then..when the bell for recess...teacher just walked away..and then we were all so quiet doing the eassy..suddenly the class was like noisy..then i finished..then the other onitor..michael..he made my day worst..he made me raise my voice at him and scold him..cause everytime i gotta do the work..and i didnt get to eat the cake i brought..thanks to him!hate him!ish!

during music class..well..when we were waiting for teacher to come..
some girls were standing out side the music room..well not outside but the door there la..so i wanted to go in but i was standing at th edge and nearly fell but yt py and i don't know la..pushed me and i fell and landed on my knee that was injured yesterday.ouch!

maths class..teacher was like who got worng for this..and that.have to pull the ear and squad up and down for how many worng you have..wow!childish?!so i gotta do it with my injured knee..well it was okay after i rest it..

gosh!it's like every friday the mst unlucky day ever!why?!ah!!

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xoxo

ashleylicious

4:53 PM

Thursday, August 14, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY XX

happy birthday AMY!!

happy birthday amy ng!

or should i say my sister [:

well nothing much..

i'm kinda hungry as cause when i'm posting this post..

i have't had my dinner yet and i just got back from volleyball..

so here is a pic of my beautiful,sexy,hot,cheerful sister [:

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xoxo

ashleylicious

7:17 PM

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

a scary thing

ah!!a scary creature was in my house..
no kidding..it was like big..
furry and black...

ahh what is it?
anyway..sis and i stayed up late last night..
got some posing class..haha joking [:
put the pictures isn't in this computer..well
gotta find a day to upload.. *slimes*

ahh the creature is so scaryy..
owh yeah..
you know today in school..
me and poh yee was looking for a worker in school
so as we pass a toilet
and suddenly we heard a voice calling my name..
in like a girl and boyish voice..and in a fast soft way..

so me and poh yee look around..went in the toilet..but no one's there...
and i thought i was imagining..and poh yee also..but we told each other and we were like
screaming like crazy..cause it's so damn scaryy ]:

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xoxo

ashleylicious

6:47 PM

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

not as good as before

well..our friendship isn't going too well these days..
not just them..but other friends and me..between us..our friendships
are fading away..it feels like that someone.is making my friendship
from bad to worst..

why

why must it be me?why why why?

i wanna be me!myself again.

to be the loser i was again

to be the geek

to be the girl whom is always invisible..

i don't wanna be the girl i am now..

the girl i am today

the girl which is the real girl.

can i leave this world today?

now?

when?

when is the time?

i want to be ast as cause no one wants me to be in this world.

one person wanna send me to hell

the other wants me to die.

so why can't i die now?

today?

or next week?

when can i perpare my funneral?

when?

can't i just get a perfect life back?

although my liife isn't always perfect. ]:

but yet i wish i could have one day with a perfect dayy [:

hope is all i only i can trust [:

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xoxo

ashleylicious

6:27 PM

Monday, August 11, 2008

arguement

arguement in school todayyy..

it's about the hang out thing..
well i don't really know what hapen but i heard that jx,cx and xy saying
that yt and me ditched them and keep on following them..
but it's the other way round..and we follow you is cause thats what hang out is...
go to the place together...
and well..i cried today cause of that..everyonee been back stabbing me..
i don't undersatnd whhyyy??!!

well..i gotta sayy..

THANKS FOR BEING MY FRIENDS LAST TIME..
BUT AS TIMES GOES. PEOPLE CHANGE..
AND YET I'VE CHANGED TO BE YOUR ENEMY
WHEN I DID NOTHING WRONG..
IT AIN'T MY FAULT..

MY LIFE IS LIKE A WOUND..
WHEN IT'S RECOVERS..
IT GET'S HURT AGAIN..
AT THE SAME PLACE.
AND MY HEART IS GETTING WEAKER
AND WEAKER AND WEAKER.
SOONER OR LATER,
I WON'T BE IN THIS WORLD ANYMORE.
AS CAUSE THE WOUND GOT TOO DEEP AND IT STOP
THE HEART TO BEAT ]:
GOODBYE

tata

xoxo

ashleylicious

5:56 PM

Sunday, August 10, 2008

hang out

hang out todayy..

well..it's fun..hmm..er..jx,cx and xy ditched me and yt..well..
i guess the reason it's cause of mee..

haiz..i know i'm a pian in the ass okay?!
but i'm trying not to be..and trying to be as happy as i could on that dayy..
but i can't/..but cause everytime..i see like you guys were running away from me..
as i get nearer to you guys..you guys run awayy..what did i do?
i wanna havee friends like you guys all the while..i mean when i'm sad..you guys are there..
but i don't know what happen..but suddenly it changed..

I WANNA DIE AS CAUSE I DON'T BELONG HERE..
THE PLACE WHERE I BELONG IS A PLACE WHERE IT IS CALLED EARTH!!

pics time [:

tata

xoxo

ashleylicious

5:49 PM

Saturday, August 9, 2008

thanks but no thanks

thanks for the give..

but i can't accept it..
well todayy i have school replacement..hmm
enjoyed it..
teacher was kinda fun todayy..
hmm..what next..owh yeahh..
erm..i'm so sorry that erm..i didn't accept..
it's nicee..but i just can't accept it..

DADDY

daddy why didn't come to school??

i know adi..you are not feeling well..

get well soon daddyy..

i lovee youu [:

MUMMY

mummy!!why you so bad.

but you todayy kena "wu lao shi"

to wear the ants high..haha..

thanks mummy for making my day cheerful..

and so sorry cause everytime annoy you

AH GONG GONG

ah gong gong..

you very good [:

i lovee youu[:

8:16 PM

Friday, August 8, 2008

the songs the made me go crazee lately

~like only a women can~
I wasn’t perfect
I’ve done a lot of stupid things
Still no angel
I wasn’t looking for forgiveness
Wasn’t laid out by my pride
Shocked by her attention
And someone signed me up for love
I didn’t want it
And now I can’t live without it

~don't wanna fight~
Lately
We been going
Through it
Slammin' doors
And yellin'
Like crazy
Cusin' each other
Out everyday

~queen of my heart~
I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all of our tears
Will be lost in the rain
When I find my way back
To your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart

~better in time~
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

~you are not alone~
But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

~not alone~
Life is getting harder day by day
And I I don't know what to do or what to say yeah
And my mind is growing weak every step I take
Its uncontrolable now they think I'm fake yeah
Coz i'm not alone no no no
But I'm not alone no no no
I'm not alone

~you and me~
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose]
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

well..i don't know whyy..but i feel likee erm..my days these days
are down..it feels likee someone is ruining my lifee..
or something else..
but what is it??no onee can tell mee...then how am i gonna live this pain?
how long?when will it end??
i wanna be with the one i am now..but i feel like soeone is stopping me..
it all feel like the smae person..
but i don't know who is that person..
is it just my imagination?
is it real?
or fake?
i'm trying to fight against these problems but i can't cause this problem isn't easy to solve..
but all i wanna do is just to end this thing..but i can't cause i don't know who is that person

tata

xoxo

ashleylicious

6:19 PM

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

friends i love cherish[:

friends that i loved, enjoy the laughter with aree....

carin