"You are the reason I smile "


HAHAHAHAHHA! MICHELLE YOU ROCK MY ASS OFF.! KEN AND EU CHIAN YOU ARE SO AWESOME.! YOU'RE SO GULLIBLE BUT IT'S FUNNY. HAHAA!(:

LIGHT UP LIGHT UP!!! You know i love you ! (: hahaha! Oh so today during mandarin was HILARIOUS! Gabbi was so funny!!! Oh oh oh oh oh oh guess what? on the bus.. yesterday, we were putting make up on NAVIN! hahahahaha! and today, we were all bullying Navin. haha! naaw. sorry lah Navin. ahha! (: Oh Jess.. Jess Jess Jess. you so cool one? Faria.. You are so awesome? hahaha! you know that right. Hahaa! Anisa ! I can't believe you and him. like wow. unbelievable. (: oh oh well. hahaa! I'm happy for you. nyahaha!

WHat else should i blog? So i'm skyping with michelle and it's so funny. nyahhaa. ! FISH FACE! hahaha! (: nothing to blog for now. will update it later on if there's anyting to blog on .(:




Apparently, I love you






6:09 PM

"All i want is your hugs right now"


Hey hey hey hey! (: So today was boring. Everything was going the wrong way ish round. Oh Flora, you understand right?!?! Michelle, if you are reading this, I'll tell you on skype as soon as possible.

I think lately I've been having mood swings. I'm not in a really good mood now. I don't know why. But everything is messed up in school, everything is just going the wrong way round. I know I can't always have it the way i want it to be, it's life and it's unpredictable but still.. It's hurting so much every single day in school. Michelle & Flora, if you guys are reading this, i really need one of your hugs. Well, Michelle, i need yours. Flora gave me one, but i guess i need another one. I just want everything to go back to the way it used to be, but i can't. it can't.. i just know it. I don't wanna start crying all over again and again . :'( Maybe now I need a shoulder. A friend, a sister to understand what is going on. But. noo. She doesn't understand.. I'm crying myself to sleep, crying myself to wake up and go to school.. I just hate what is going on lately. :'(



Apparently, I really really miss you








10:47 PM

"All I want is a hug from you"



Hey there!!! (: it's been a while i know. but who cares. no wait. it was just yesterday i blogged and it's almost 11 now. and i have to go and sleep.. Oh well. anyways. Today was some okay-ish boring bad day. get what i mean? Well, Flora, you know why cause of ahem.. THEM. hmm... what next.. nothing. English Sosca's was gay! SPEED READING? a whole chunk of passage and only get few seconds to read and have to answer the questions? GAY!! Geography was bad for me. Maths was gay shit boring and Max was being weird!!! nothing much i guess?!??!?!? went to ISKl and played. got stuck in the jam and my daddy and mama got pissy. So nothing much happened after that.


"I'm sick of you always not listening to me and always always always always.. saying I'm wrong. I'm getting onto my nerves!"

I think i shall stop blogging here.! (:


Apparently, me miss youuuuu!







10:51 PM

"I just want you right by my side now"


Hey hey hey hey hey! (: So on Sunday i didn't do anything..

MONDAY, TODAY.. SCHOOL. How was it? In the morning was our tutor class first to do our SOSCA's just cause we are P and P comes before Q,R,S & T!! It was okay. Oh damn, i have a feeling that I will be in the lower set for maths. =/ oh well. hmm. break was next. nothing. Dt was fun! (: But Frankie, seriously.. Eu Chian and I aren't going out!!!! We are best friends. !! So it was History next it was so boring but people, stop being racist!!!!! Lunch was okay-ish. Drama was fun i was a little girl. ahha. Pig tails all the way up! CUUUTE? i was acting cute okay. it was all part of the play. ahh! Mandarin was boring!! Bruung. school ends. bus ride was funny but messed up in a way. !!

Nothing much i can blog. =P



Nurlyanaaaa! I can't stop laughing my ass off now. (: and smiling like a fool in front of the computer. I bet you do that too. but hey, we can't help it right? =P



Apparently, you make me smileee(:







10:03 PM

"Baby, will you hold me close tonight?"

Hey there. Sorry for not updating for hm. few days.

Thursday- Art exam was suppose to be right after assembly but it got moved to the second lesson. So first lesson was Mandarin. We told Ms.Miow that we want to revise, which is stupid cause there's nothing to revise on. That's the point. haha. So it was one funny Mandarin class. Lazy to type it all out =P Then it was break next, nothing much. Art test here we come. We were suppose ti draw an observation drawing. Right handers have to hold a pen in their hand and draw their hand. We had to choose a pose out of 3 poses, shade in with pencil and all. I think i did badly, but i guess it was a little good. (: then it was Science next. We were talking about drugs. We were suppose to be doing revision cause Mr. Manuriak asked us to but we brought up some topics and boom, we got carried away with drugs and 16 years old peeps. haha. (: Lunch was next. Nothing. English, it was boring.! Kathryn likes my story. and she thought i died in my story cause it was so intense. but sadly i didn't die, if i die, i wouldn't be here now.haha! (: Then Games next. Water polo. Gah. Sucky. then i had to change for MKIS's friendly match, i was so freaking wet. On the bus to MKIS was really boring. Edison didn't want to talk to me but soon he did. (: played played played. nearly did a split. Went home. watched AI. nothing next.


Friday- English, nothing. Break, nothing. Pe, we had to play hockey cause Mr.Charman was busy with stuff. I got hit in the shin. Geography next, nothing. Lunch, nothing, got my report. NOT BAD! (: Art, I got a paper thingy. Proud of myself (: Maths, it wasn't that bad i guess. Well, before Mr.D came in!!! BRRUUG Schools out


TODAY- COLD! Going to my cousin's place soon. so this is a quick update (: Will try and update it mmore when i get back. (:

Edited:

So i went to my cousin's place and we sang sang sang. Laughed laughed laughed. (: Soon i got tired and fell asleep on my brother's shoulder. (:

" As much as it hurts, I gotta stay strong. As much as i want this to end, it won't. Things are getting worst and worst. I'm crying more and more. Night and day, school hours, weekend hours. I sit and think.. What went wrong.. I know crying is not the answer, but i can't help it. There's so much pain in me right now. How much things are changing. People change I know, but why must you change in the first place? Trying to fit in? All I know is that whenever you want something, you only come looking for me and now you hate me? I'm confused. I don't wanna cry all over again and again as I'm typing this out but i guess blogging this out might make me feel better. I've always wanted to talk to you about this, but I have this feeling that you won't wanna talk to me anymore. I told one of my friend about this, I ended up acting weirdly and crazily and just signed out of MSN. I told her not to tell you. Cause I don't wanna make things complicated. My life is already complicated tho but as i always tell my other friends, life is complicated, without complication, life will not be perfect. It's true but this time, my life is too complicated, too painful to deal with & settle down. I just wish I knew the answer to all my questions that are going through my head right now "






Apparently, me miss youuuuu





5:30 PM

"You're all I need"


Hey there! (: So today was a day with exams. NO BREAK AT ALL. Jokes jokes. obviously there were lunch and break lah. So during break i studied for Geography because I got the timetable mixed up. Hm. Geography wasn't that bad all you need to do is explain which hm. I kinda suck in that so all the best. It was Mandarin Reading next. I slept after i was done. It was such a nice nap. nayha! (: It was lunch next i was freaking out for Dt i was like studying but nothing was going in! When the bell rang, time to go to the library to do my Mandarin writing. Then we had 5 minutes break which was when i started studying for dt again. Nothing seems to be going in either. : '( so went into the hall. Opened the paper and first question I forgot. How nice right. Hm so then i was colouring my design and i look up and oh damn i don't have enough time to design the second design and i have no clue what to design so i messed it up =/ oh well... Blrruung school ended. It went by fast. really fast.


So i was way over hyper on the bus. (: Bought some food for me to eat after that. I was starving. I came back and ate. Came up my room and went on the computer. Yes, I started thinking about what was happening. Soon, tears gather up.. & i just let it go. Thank you Florence for helping me out. But still, I wish everything would stop now. :'( I wish they would actually understand. I wish they would stop accusing me. I wish someone can take all this away. Hmph. It was nice to talk to Michelle after me not hearing from her for ages! Yo Michelle, you get better and get your ass to school. (: i really need your hugs :'(

Oh oh oh. New Equation (:



I'm going craaazy. :'( I want Winnie the pooh :' ( Hmmm. I hope evrything will be fine tomorrow.




Apparently,I've lost my mind







9:23 PM


"Where are you now when i need you best?"


Hey hey hey. Today was just another day with exams! so nothing i can blog about. The hall was cold. Oh well whatever. (:



" It seems alright. I sit and stare, wondering. My heart sank. Alone i sat by myself thinking whether I'm invisible. It hurts so much. Every single minute, hour. I'm thinking to myself why must i pretend that everything's alright when it's not? Why? I know you guys won't get what I'm trying to say here, but if you do, I'm sure you don't get the same feeling as I am. Ever since you left. Things changed. People changed, maybe me. It hurts so much that people seem to talk to me only when you're coming back. If you're saying I'm just sensitive, I know I am. My heart is weak I know. But what can i do ? No one seem to care either. On the other hand, you always have to be right even though you're wrong. I'm tried of arguing, letting you "win" all the time. It really hurts so much that I don't know how to explain this in words. I've cried enough. I've got enough issues, but day by day, more issues seem to appear right in front of me. I'm sick of it. Yes I am. I'm very tired of everything. As i walked alone, thinking once again, soon tears gathered in my eyes. Slowly wiping my tears away, I looked around and wonder what am I doing here. It seems like no one likes me no more. No matter how hard I've tried to do something , something worst will just sweep me off my feet again. All I want now is a long hug, someone telling me it's gonna be alright. "



Apparently, me sick of crying so much :'(




6:49 PM

"Because sometimes all I can do is think of you"


Hey hey hey! (: Sorry for not updating much. I'm having end of year exams. Drama was today and we were forced to go up first just cause we ain't a popular group. But hey, honestly.. We were good okay. (: It was scary tho. the lights shining straight into your eyes and all you can see is the light. Audience? not much. Only the figure. so imagine how scary it is. So we had free lessons after we've finished performing. Well. it's a lesson to revise for other subjects. (:

Anyway, on Sunday went out with Tane again. It was kinda weird. I shall not say much here shall I? I guess Sunday wasn't really my day. I meant Saturday. Saturday i had the worst of my life. My mom yelled at me cause of my phone bill. I mean, it's fine. but I feel bad at the same time. And not just that, she asked me to organized my time like my siblings. I mean, stop comparing all the time. I'm not smart as time, I'm not as good as them.. I'M NOT THEM :'( It hurts so much after how she yelled at me and compared me with my siblings and so happened I had a "fight" with one of my friend. Well, i thought we were joking and that's what we always do, but i have no clue what was up. He just went kaaaboom =/ and we aren't talking :'(

Honestly.. If you are reading this which i doubt so .. I miss those times like we just talking silly and stuff as friends. (:


Oh. Everything is messed up. EVERY SINGLE THING! I'm not myself. I really need a hug. I really need someone to hold me and tell me everything will be fine. :'(
I'm sick of blogging this now. I'm sorry. & I'm tired. I shall stop right here.








Apparently, me miss youu






10:07 PM




"I'll be found in you"


Hey there . Sorry for not updating again. once again, the same old reason. School next week. Exam weeks starts next week. Such sucky man. I mean, what are we doing for drama? i don't know! gaaah. No wi hate these 2 weeks when we first get our ass back to school. Sri Kdu is off due to H1N1. So hm. sad peeps. But i rather be going to school. It's boring at home. Unless we go out every single day but that ain't possible.!! Cause parents will say that you spend less time at home. Which i do agree.a nd Will be spending loads of money.! Money don't come easy you know.

So hm. School Exams. Gonna have new science teachers. Well. Gonna be separated.. But, this year, time went by so fast. Ohh. this sucks. Loads of people leaving and I'm gonna cry to death!!!

Hm. Right now I'm hm. in a good ish mood i guess? I don't know. & for the first time my sister helped me for some certain stuff. haha!

I'm sad now. looking through the mssd volleyball pictures! i know i know i have mood swings but i do miss playing in mssd and all.! :'( and with the team. :'(

So it's late and my mama asked me to go and tidur. I shall go and sleep. haha! My mom. so hooked on FACEBOOK. (: oh dear mom..






Apparently, me is very love you







6:48 PM




"I miss everything about you"


Hey there. Sorry again for not blogging for a long time. It's just that there's nothing to blog and I'm so restless. Like.. all i do is stay home. so whenever i get on the blogger, i just get distracted and then have nothing to write. so yeah.

I'm so pissed off. My sister is going to Redang tomorrow and my brother is going out the whole say and I'm gonna be home alone again! Fish this shizz!! It's not fair. And My mom comes in my room and being mad at me for not doing my homework. WHEN I'M DONE ALREADY! I'm freaking out for the exams but i can't be bothered to study as well. I'm more worries on my drama okay! GEO, so way gonna fail it. so as HISTORY.

My sister just said that i also went holiday with Nurlyana to Penang before. but REDANG is my dream Malaysia stay. And my sister doesn't need to pay or anything! staying in suites and all. how is that better than mine?! I hate you i hate you! So unfair.!!





Apparently,I miss you already







10:46 PM




"I can't think about anything but just you."


Hey my dear peeps .! I know it has been a while since I've updated this blog. Well, i gotta say. i was so bored with the computer that i forgot to blog. so yeah. SORRY. I shall update it now. what should i blog about? hm. i shall blog about YOU. YOU. YOU. you to whoever is reading this. haha. okay, yes. I'm a little woooo up there. a.k.a I'm CRAZEE !

So past few days it's really boring! very boring. What can i say. It's holidays and I'm not going anywhere so no duh it'll be boring. Just staying home doing nothing.! =/


Okay now I have nothing to blog about. nyahaa! what is there to blog about? I'm a sad sad sad person. haha! (:




Apparently, I'm missing you







9:31 PM
"The days with you are endless."

Hey hey hey hey! (: Okay so now I'm bored at home as I'm home alone. I'm trying to do my English homework but I'm a little stuck. So I'm watching superhero movie on star movies. It's lame. I was watching so you think you can dance earlier and i was kinda bored of it. It was nice tho. haha! (: Oh yeah, i was like watching golf channel once with my parents right. They interviewed the winner and guess what? This random guy behind was HOT and CUTE. (: I know I know I'm weird but hey, I'm bored at the same time.

So everyone in the local schools are in school right now and like no one is on msn now I wonder why. Some people might be busy and plus, i don't have much contact from ASS. I'm hungry. My mom just called and said that she will get some McDonalds as soon as my dad is done with his lunch with some friends. it's really boring man. I mean i have nothing to blog about now. So yesterday i went to Golf and it was hot but fun.

OMG! Guess what? My maid is watching the Superhero movie with me. haha! (: I have no clue why I'm watching the movie. haha! (: But hey, hm. i guess i need a rest right? Oh shoot. If my parents come back, they'll say I'm one lazy girl. watching tv and having my laptop in front of me and my phone and having the AC on. haha! (:

Okay now I'm watching a movie on Hallmark and it's so nice. Okay okay. It's called Defending our children. If I'm not mistaken I think I've watched this movie before. Okay okay. I'm going crazy here typing while watching and commenting everything. haha!

I think it shows that I'm really extremely bored!!! Okay so I just heard something like: the moment i first saw you, i fell in love with you. I wish you would realized that." okay. woah woah woah Hold on there little person. Chillax. shoot. parents are back. buhbyee







2:36 PM




"You are the only reason why i smile everyday"



Hey hey hey hey! (: So Saturday. did nothing. I slept most of the time. was tired from the days before. today is a Sunday. did nothing much either. I've uploaded the video i've edited for Nurlyana and she has uploaded the fear factor video. i still can't believe i drank that! I was so grossed out when i was watching that video. haha.. Hm. so then i went down ate my lunch watch a sad sad sad movie. came up for a while. went down. watched golf. took a nap. woke up. went tesco. came back. had dinner. came up. went down. came up. went down had fruits. came up. and here i am (: Shoot. I still need to pack for tomorrow. I'm gonna golf tomorrow (: I'm so dead. and I need to shower as well. oh boy...


I'm not really in a good moon now. I don't know why. I was thinking about twinkle twinkle little star and like i searched up youtube for the song. and i started listening to nursey rhymes and i started crying. i miss kiddie days. : '( So i started watching Barney again. and yeah. =/


And yes, I'm under some break downs now. I'm in the part of life where I'm being sad, depressed now. Why? I just missed everything. It's hard to tell someone this but yeah. :'( It's just. hmph. Difficult to tell. Michelle & Flora, I might need a hug from you guys. but not a sexual one please. haha (: I need to talk to you guys urgently yo. that's why we need a sleepover now.! As soon as possible man!!!


Okay, I have no clue what is up with me now. but I'm currently going through depression. :'(




Apparently, I'm in lovee






9:22 PM




"Everything was so perfect.. "

Hey hey hey hey! (: so yesterday met Nurlyana. went for dinner with her. It was 9 of us. it was so much fun. Words can't explain it lah. I would love to talk about it but but but. so hard to explain it in words. haha! (:

Today. went over to yip's place took us long! hm. it was so much fun (: I don't feel good now.! thanks to the drink! gaah. we had so many stuff that happened. and i jsut can't explain it. I will try to explain it to you guys tomorrow. as now, i'm completely exhausted..



I'm sorry. but i'm just so tired!



Apparently, I'm missing youu







10:52 PM

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