'It the last day of November. It's the last day of November. November.November. Repeated to myself over and over again. November. A year went by so quickly. Too quickly. This year, time sure did fly past us. Time certainly did. It's scary how a year always ends and you start a new year. I know it doesn't have much difference but it sure is still scary. I remember just last year I was spending my new years eve and new years with my best friend. It was one heck of a day, one heck of a new years and one heck of a moment to remember. This year. Will it be that special ? Will it be ? Few more hours till midnight. Till it's December. Till it's the first day of the last month of each year. Why am I blogging about this ? It's just so hard to believe a year went by so quickly. Some of my mates are leaving, some are staying. It's just so hard to see someone else leave again. It was just last year that I lost loads of friends. It was a sad, heartbreaking, painful memory. But I guess, we're lucky enough to have internet now to keep in touch heh. I guess, I'm just too scared to be a year older.'
10:36 PM
Monday, November 29, 2010
Hey there guys ! (: It's Monday ! Wooweee. (: Well, nothing to celebrate about that. So on Saturday, nothing much happened. Sunday, which was yesterday, was Tanaya's birthday party. Yeah. It was fun. I have a blister. and I think i injured my toes. from ice-skating and my right ankle. It seem to hurt so much today. =/ Might need a massage today.
Today was an okay day. Mandarin test was grrr. Thought we have a chemistry test but no. That's cool then. So I have Malay speaking test. Was the first and i got full marks. yay. (: Then it was pe. was so boring. at least i had flora. Could talk to her about what I'm feeling right now. Thank you for listening, but i need to talk to you more again tomorrow please Flora. I need you. ):
I have no clue what is up with my computer. on youtube. it's loaded right. but it only plays like till half way. So gay. and some of my pictures, I can't see it. why ? cause apparently my hard disk is full. wtf ? so fast ?!?!? grr. so pissed now.
"I'm scared, worried sake that I'm holding you back. I don't want to hold you back. It's my fault. It's all my fault. But, I can't let you go. I simply can't. What we had that day made me smile for the rest of the day. I couldn't stop thinking about what happened. ):"
Sighs. My sister cried so much yesterday. I cried as well cause it was so sad. ): Right now, I really want a hug from her. Cause last time I randomly went up to her and hug her and i don't have that now. ): I need a hug. I want a hug. ):
'I simply can't explain what I'm feeling right now.'
Try This by J.R.A
6:49 PM
Friday, November 26, 2010
Hey there guys (: How are you guys doing ? Okay. Quick update here for you guys. Yesterday was okay day. So today. Today. Was the day I gave my abs a work out by just laughing real hard. (: Why ? Okay. Let me bring you baaack from the start. Early in the morning.I woke up. Shower and got ready for school. Our bus was early today. So then I chat and chat. Bell rang and went for tutor. then had Photography. Had this person coming in talking about the university thingy. It looks so cool.! (: I swear to god that he has an obsession with bananas. So then it was Malay it was pretty boring. Folded a paper heart and Yip folded some stars. S I kept one star and kept the pretty heart. I coloured it in. (: Then it was break. I helped Wichelle to colour her English work. Then Zurhuil ( still no clue how you spell his name) was like : i didn't know you're in my english class ! I kept telling him I am. In the end, i told him i wasn't. So Tichelle & I were walking to Business and then Tanaya & Zurhuil were behind us. Zurhuil went in front of us and shouted to Tanaya that he was late. I was like : No you're not. He said. are you kidding me. I have Mr.Jonhson. You're not in my class. and i was like : I AM. he didn't believe me. Eventually he did. I told Tim when I got in the class and Tim was like : ARE YOU KIDDING ME ZURHUIL ! SHE SITS OPPOSITE YOU AND YOU DIDN"T EVEN REALIZE THAT ?! hahahha! it was so funny ! (: Then it was English. It was boring. Lunch time. was EPIC. (: That's when I gave my abs a little of work out.
Here's what happened. Carmen asked Tanaya to come over to our table as I wanna ask him about who is invited to his party so I can plan the transport. Then we were talking. Then Tanaya was talking to Navin about something. describing something. and I was behind him.THEN. He accidentally elbowed my boobs. Okay. That hurts so then I tried to take revenge right. I was gonna hit his balls. I missed the first time but he bang into the recycling bin! haha. (: we all started laughing our way up the stairs. Then I tried again and failed. Okay. I swear it was much funnier in reality. Okay. I totally forgot what happened after that. haha. (:
Math was next. I was laughing my way up to math. haha ! (: Then Kathryn though i was mad for a sec cause i was yeaah. *inappropriate stuff* So I told her. Then after maths. like 5 mintues or 2 mintues before the bell rang. Kathryn asked me what actually happened. and I kidna told her. Max and Shuaib over heard and asked me if they could punch me. WTF. then it was dt. pretty boring. Mr.moore wans't in AGAIN!!!
On the bus, I sat way in front. Why ? no seats. This I need to talk to Flora & Tichelle ASAP pleaase. (: Nothing happened. Got left alone after got dropped back home. ):
So after dinner my uncle gave me a lecture about life and stuff. we made up some quotes. He told me some stories. Almost cried as I was wondering about my own life. He said we should not regret every choice we make. We made that choice for a reason. If it's something bad, take it as an experience. Never ever regret. then he went on about saying other stuff and he mentioned : Life is boring when you're always happy or sad. That's why we always have our ups and downs. Yes, it may be painful when you're sad but hey, you can bring happiness back to your life if you choose to bring it back. It's your choice. You live your life the way you want but never ever regret. And he was talking about his childhood moments and I thought about my first day in Alice smith school, my primary school and how much I miss those times. ): It was one sad lecture. Oh so then I gave him some hints that I want a DSLR. haha. I was like : yeah, I was playing around with my friend's camera and it was good and I think Nikon is the best. HAha. but he didn't fall for it. He like took it another way. I guess he won't get me one. ): Oh well.
I wanna watch my show so I shall stop here. (: *brush my teeth*
By chance( You & I) - J.R.A
An old song but it's amazing. ! (:
8:37 PM
Thursday, November 25, 2010
I was on tumblr reading a post. Read the problem and saw the advice. and it's such a good advice. ! (: I can relate to it.
"I’m incredibly sorry this has happened to you! I think there’s one thing about love is that you’ve just got to be unafraid and take those chances. It hurts so much when your heart is being shattered into pieces, but you shouldn’t run away from love. I don’t think you should let go and move on, not all boys are the same. Give this guy a chance, he might turn out to be different from what you think he is. Don’t be afraid to jump even though you’ve been hit so hard before. Keep believing in this thing called love, because you WILL find the right person you’re meant to be with. You WILL find that person who makes everything complicated into something so simple. I’m sorry again that you’ve gotten your heart broken so many times, but don’t be afraid to love. It’ll one day turn out to be worth the risk."
*I don't know what is up with me but I've been thinking a lot lately. Maybe it's better off if I let you go.*
10:19 PM
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Hey there guys. Sorry for not updating since Monday. So today is Wednesday. (: What can i blog about ? Oh yeah. Monday , was so happy i can walk properly. (: Then it was pe. very excited about it. (: THEN. BOOOOM. It was not good. I injured my ankle AGAIN ! it sucked. I wanted to run. ): Flora kinda injured hers as well. Same injury mate. (; So i went to the nurse. The nurse didn't even take a look at it or gave me ice pack. she was like : just rub the counterpain in. okay fine. that's okay. then she took the counter pain thingy and put it on my ankle and asked me to rub it myself. and she put so much ! SUCH A WASTE ! She freaking didn't check my darn ankle. wtf is her problem !!! Aren't you suppose to ice-pack it first. jeez. So then I went back. HOPPING MY WAY BACK TO THE FIELD. cause the nurse didn't care to help. the old nurse helped me a lot ! I miss her. So then I jsut sat and watch. ): Then change then went home.
Tuesday, it was an okay day. tiring for me as i was limping around. Nothing much happened. UNTIL WHEN I CAME HOME ! I was walking down the stairs and my other ankle started hurting and boom! told my mom and my mom said : i think you shoud use your brother's crutches tomorrow. and i was like. WHAAAT! No thanks.
So today, i didn't use the crutches. but regret as it might have been so much easier to move around. but at the same time, i don't want to be in crutches. I'll see about it. haha.
So my mom decided not to massage my injured ankle for me. ): After blogging, i'm going down and bug her to massage it for me. Ohh, and my parents were pissed about the fees for seasac arts but then they finally said okay . (: so i'm going. but no one is taking photography with me. ): Oh well, I'll make new friends. (:
"Sometimes I just wish there was never a "us". Things wouldn't be that complicated. ):"
Boyce Avenue - On my way(Acoustic version)
9:05 PM
Monday, November 22, 2010
"As I lay on my bed, thinking about us, tears of sorrow ran down my cheeks. It's too late now to go back and my heart sank. It was my fault. What was I thinking? Pictures from the past made me tear more. I just miss being with you, miss how it used to be, miss how we had so much time together, miss how you just knew what to get me for my birthday & I just miss how we were just in love. It was my fault. It was my fault. That's all I can think of right now. My fault. My fault. My fault. But it's just a little too late. I wanted to apologize but I just didn't know how. Right now, I find myself missing you even more than my best friend. Will you ever forgive me about what had happened in the past ? Will you ? If you do, I can't even forgive myself. If you're reading this and you know who you are, I just wanna apologize right now. If things between us don't work out, it not because I don't love you. It's because there's this little reason within me that's stopping me. "
Missing you by The Saturdays
10:21 PM
Friday, November 19, 2010
CAN'T STOP LISTENING TO "BACK TO DECEMBER BY TAYLOR SWIFT". SUCH A NICE SONG !!
* & mainly cause the song relates to everything I'm feeling right now*
6:38 PM
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Hey there guys ! (: Sorry for not updating for long. Anyways, on Monday till Wednesday, nothing much happened. Wednesday was a public holiday for everyone. It was still so boring ! So today. Thursday. It was not that boring today. For the first time, I didn't feel tired in school. haha ! (: So malay was first, it was really boring. Was a loner again as Su Khi came back so back to my old seat. ): then it was English. Did okay for the speaking & listening task. It was one weird speaking & listening task. Then it was break. Went and change the darn car sticker. It was pretty annoying how the lady was all pms-ing. She specifically said write your last name. I wrote it down and when she hung up the phone, she was like : NG what ? You think I know ? Right your dad's name, your name and your class and your contact number. What the heck woman ! You said LAST/FAMILY name ! not all those. Even Tichelle heard it. Gosh lady. ! So then we had time to hop over the Art block to get the slip for Seasac Arts. (: *briiing* Went up took my books and headed off to Chemistry. It was such a waste of the first few minutes. I mean i get it some of them don't get it but still, acting it out ? Really ? It was business next. Surprise, surprise. It wasn't that boring today !! Briiing. Lunch time. Nothing much happened during lunch. Briing. Maths. SO BORING ! then it was physics. It was okay only. Not that bad. Normal stuff. Briing END OF SCHOOL BABY ! (:
Walking to the locker. Gonna open my locker, Aditya said he needa ask me something personal. So i was like okay sure. He said later. So I was packed so was he. He was like saying something half way and Patrick interrupted and he didn't finish what he was asking me. I swear he said he'll text me but according to Navin, he didn't say that. So oh well. So Navin and I had kinda a "fight" about something. I was like : fine be that way and i turned around and he was like : noo don't turn around. and i was liek : BYE! I'mma sleep ! yes. See how serious this can be. hahah!.
So i waited for my mom to pick me up. Sent Adrian back and went home. Watched Ghost whisperer. (: I can't believe it just ends like that. psht. So mad. !! So I came up. blogging half way, my head was hurting like mad, i ran down crying. it was freaking painful. Felt like i was gonna die. My mom wasn't worried. and the pain wouldn't go away then she only got worried. Then i was crying so much. Was such in pain. My mom massaged my head which didn't help. It then slowly went away. Thank god.
GTG now guyys ! (:
Back to december by Taylor Swift
Such an amazing song and it's so true.
5:39 PM
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Hey there guys. Sorry for not blogging for ages. Been pretty urhm. not sure. hahaha ! Anyways, on Friday, nothing much happened. It was one heck of a tiring day for me. Why ? cause I was limping around the school the whole time and Kathryn was being nice to walk so fast. haha! Moving on, nothing much actually happened. It was a boring lesson during photography cause Sukhi isn't there. ): Damn, tomorrow's and Tuesday's lesson will be bad as well. ):
Saturday, it was pretty boring alright. I was home alone.): and my mom claims that she asked me to go out with her. Suuuure mom. So i did nothing. Did some homework. Oh for dinner, it was so bad. we went to our usual restaurant to eat but then it was full and my dad hates to wait. so we walked away and went to another restaurant that my mom read off the newspaper. We went there. Sat down, looked at the menu and said it was expensive. So we were like : maybe it's nice. s we ordered and it was not nice at all. it was COLD, SMALL PORTION and COLD ! What pissed us off was that we had to wait so long for COLD FOOD ! Wtf ! Who the hell recommended that restaurant has probably been paid to say nice stuff !
Todaay. Yes, i was alone again. You know why ? My parents and brother left without telling me! So i thought to work out at home and i just remembered that i have an injured ankle so i can't do much. I only did like simple stuff. So then after few hours alone, my parents and brother decided to come back home ! and it started raining. boooo. ): Ohhh before they came home, I watched this Japanese tv series and oh my gosh. It was so sad. I feel their pain. Daamn. I was crying like a maaaaad cow my maid was watching with me and she thought i'm crazy. haha. (: but it was good okay. I got to cry things out in a living room instead of my room and i had my maid with me. hahha ! (: nothing much happened after that.
"Yes, I cried cause I have some thoughts on my mind. Wondering if it's right or wrong. Is there ever gonna be a you and me ? Oh, I cried, I cried."
Oh my jeez. I can't stop thinking about the Japanese tv Series thingy. !!!! It's just soooo saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad ! there's one bit it goes like
Girl and boy walks together. Girls stops behind him. Boy turns around
Girl : I'm sorry
Boy : For ?
Girl : I like you. but I'm not in love with you. I like someone else.
Boy : And who is that other one ?
*car hons* Guy's parents came. took them for lunch. Girl feels so awkward. Guy took a phone call. parents talked to the girl
Parents : Thank you so much for taking care of my boy.
Dad: when I was sick, he took care of me and told me he'll find someone to marry
Mom : yeah. and he found you. You're a lovely girl
Dad *talks about sad stuff*
Girl: *cries but feel awkward*
-next scene-
Guy and girl at a traffic light.
Girl : thank you
Boy : for ?
Girl: taking me out for lunch. I'm sorry. ):
Boy: It's okay. I know you don't love me right now but I guess that's life. I'll wait for you until you love me.
*traffic light turns green walk away * *sad music played*
Girl : *stands there alone crying*
Oh gosh, i can go on forever. it doesn't sound that sad here but it was really saaaaaaaaaaad ! ): Anyway, it's lateeee now. haha
Shine a Light by McFly ft Taio Cruz
10:22 PM
Thursday, November 11, 2010
& once again, I find myself missing you. ):
Justin Bieber's Girlfriend by Michaela Wallace
Such a cute music video and song. and guess what ? she's only my age. crap man ! (:
10:15 PM
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Hey hey hey hey ! (: Sorry for not updating lately. Was in Singapore last week and have been pretty tired ever since I've gotten back. So Sesac was fun even though we got last. I got MVP, really unexpected but thank you guys(team mates & Mr.Haslam).
I have nothing much to blog. I don't really wana blog about what happened in Singapore. haha. Too lazy. (: Yes yes, I know I'm a lazy person. So whaat ? Okaay, I bought this shirt from Zara. Nom nom nom. Urhm Oh, Alisa, Kayla & I got told off by Mr.Charman for being late. hahaa. Oh well.
I think I should do my dt homework as I haven't done it at all. haha. (: Urhm so my dad has finally bought me a new battery for my phone. (: My phone was being so retarded on the way to Singapore. I was texting and BOOM. Bye bye !
WHAT TO BLOG ? So I'm texting and bloging and fb-ing and yeaah. I KEEP HAVING HEADACHES FOR SOME REASON ! It's so annoyingggg ! and I've been sleeping loads. grrrr.
Okaaaay. So my phone bill is going fine. hahha. just checked it. hahha.s o i can continue texting now. hahahhaha. (:
I have nothing to blog so I'll stop here. (;
"There's some secrets within me that no one will ever know."
What do you go by Bon Jovi
4:38 PM
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Mom: I'm going singapore with you
Me: You're joking are you ?
Mom : Your aunt invited me.
Me: We won't even see each other . What's the point
Mom: True that
Hey hey hey ! (: Hahha. yes. My mom was gonna come to Singapore with me but she changed her mind. YES ! (: So I'm going to stay at Copthrone hotel. Daddy said it's a not bad place. Can't wait. It's tomorrow. I haven't even gotten any snacks. Guess what my mom said ?
"Ashley, since you've baked cupcakes, why not bring them with you to Singapore"
Urhm, Mom.. How about NO ?! I think people rather eat their snacks rather than my cupcakes and it's too big to fit into my bag. I'm just gonna try again today and ask my mom to let me buy some snacks ! Okay . So yesterday was an okay day for me. I baked and that's it. Oh wait. In the morning, I woke up, took my shower went out with my mom. let me make this statement clearer. My mom and I walked out to the bank. hahhaa. (: Yes, good exercise (: So when i was in the bank, everyone, that means EVERYONE in the bank was looking at me. Why ? Cause I'm the only child there. It's creepy tho. Like when I was waiting for my mom, this duude was beside me and he kept staring and I'm like "oh shit. mom hurry up !" and Yes finally my mom was done and I could get the hell out of there. So my mom and I walked further out just to get picked up by my brother and we're off to lunch. (: So we ate . Then my mom wanna buy bread and i wanted to buy butter to bake. So my brother dropped us off and I told him that we can walk home as i wanna exercise. hahah ! (: Guess what ? My mom forgot that she wanna buy oil as well so I had to carry it back home. but it's all cool. hhaa. (:
When I got home, we baked. Then I went out with my parents to send my brother for his class. My dad wanted to eat so we went and eat. Well, I only took like a spoon ? haha. okay that sounds a little off but oh well. Moving on. While we were waiting for my brother to walk all the way to this mamak stall, I saw this cuuuuute guy ! OMG! Shooo Cuute. Not as in baby cute but as in like hot cute . (: So we got into the car. came home and BOOM ! Why BOOM ? i dont know. hahahaah!
So yeah, I'm chatting now with some people on Fb. Tichelle, if you're reading this, I wanna tell you that you were right about that duude. Will tell you more later tonight. But but but. He's gonna take me backstage to meet John Mayer !! You hell have to come ! hahaa. even tho he said that you're not coming but grrr. !
"There's still this secret hidden in me."
Heartbreak Lullaby by A Teens
I used to be obsessed with A-teens when I was younger. hahaha !
"Oh why can it be just you and me" naaaaw. hahahha! Yes yes, I know i know. (:
9:57 AM
Monday, November 1, 2010
Hi there. (: Sorry for not updating for long. haha. So on Friday, was the last day then it was half term. Friday was my last day of volleyball training and it was so freaking boring ! Wasted my time. So i went home with Elliot, Adrian, Sarah and Elliot's sister. So we were waiting for the guys. they were so slow. So then we reached Elliot's house. Waited for Adrian's mom. Then went home with her. It was so late. Oh well. nothing much happen.
On Saturday.. So I woke up. Went and had my breakfast. then waited for a while. had a little snack then went out to Gardens. While waited for Sukhi, i went to Borders. While i was there, I saw this amazing book i wanted to buy. but i didn't. and now i've forgotten the title. ): Anyways, then this some donation girl came up to me and went : hi. can i speak english to you ? I'm a student and helping for this charity. It's for some spastic children. Can you please donate? So I didn't want to but i didn't know how to say. People were looking at me. So yeah. I donated. and then well she was waited for me to donate, she was like : Are you Malaysian? and i was like : yeah. and she was like : oh. I thought you is the not Malaysia . I thought you come from some where else. I thought you are white. and i was like : urhm okay. ? and then she started going like : Ni Hui Jiang Hua Yu Ma? (Do you know how to speak mandarin?) and i was like : Hui, hui.( I do) and then she was like : oh okay. Hen Hao.(very good) and i just continued looking at books. hahah! laaames. Then Sukhi came. and she was suppose to be Harry potter but she said she failed drawing the scar. so she's a hot nerdy student. and i was like : shoot. what am I. So We were walking around to think what I should be. Bumped in to Tanaya. and he said about someone at the entrance. so we were waiting for Caitlin but then we told her to meet us at Borders as we have finally thought of something. I'm a Hippy. hahaa. went and bought colourful stuff. But totaly fail of a Hippy. hahaa. (: So then we went to redbox and blah blah blah. around 5 ish right the Bill came and paid then we went out. but we didn't know it was only 5 somehting. we could have stayed like for another half an hour. cause we said until 6. Oh well. We went and eat. I bought Cotton Candy. Nom nom nom. (: then we went to Sukhi's place. Caitlin, Sakura, Sukhi and I were like laughing so much while waiting for the others to come. haha. it was hilarious. (:
So The others came. Put in a CD i was scared to death that most of the time i hid underneath the blanket. haha. (: then we watched another movie. I've watched it before.So it's cool. haha. (: some people left. then Carmen was the last one to leave. We then went up and relaxed, chit-chat, took some pictures, took off our make up, wash our faces, changed, chit-chat. haha ! Then we got hungry. So we went down. and made Maggie Mee. nom nom nom . haha. but we weer stil hungry. so Loni used the Maggie Mee to make like this other food. She mixed all sort of stuff in it. but it was nicee. (: so we chat a little and finally went up. an then we chat some more. We didn't jsut chat okay. But it's not good for me to blog about what actually happen. cause duude. PG 18 man ! hhahaha. (: So Caitlin slept first while we continue chatting. Then i fell asleep and i guess the rest fell asleep as well. haha So i woke up the first. but then no one was awake so I went back and sleep. then I heard Sukhi . So i woke up and boom she was awake so I waved. ahaha. random much. and then Loni woke up I waved as well. haha. (: then Zoe woke up and we started chtting only then Caitlin woke up. haha. She slept the earliest yet woke up the latest. haha. (:
We then chat chat chat. Talking about how we wanna make pancakes. So happen Sukhi's dad came and ask about food. and Sukhi told him that we might make Pancakes and then they were tlaking about something else. andSukhi told us we're having Chinese Delivery. Wow. first time hearing that. so we brushed our teeth and went down and ate some biscuit as we wanna wait for the chinese delivery. as Sukhi said it only takes 3 minutes. so then we played with her dog. Caitlin got raped by it. haha ! then her dad came home and Sukhi asked her dad why hasn't the food came up. and he said they couldn't find their place and so he had to pick it up. So then we ate. there were loads of food. !! We ate. and we were so full. then we went up and chat some more. Had fun calling people. it was hilarious. haha. then I showered first and when i came out, they were on the computer and then we saw cupcakes and we wanted to bake them. So told people to hurry up. So Caitlin showered next then Loni then Zoe. Guess what ? we didn't have enough time to bake them cause Tichelle said that she'll be pickin gup up from Midvalley at 3:30. and then that's when we all worried. I HAD NO TRANSPORT TO MIDVALLEY ! It was all a misunderstanding. so yeah. we sorted things out. finally but i was late.
So Tichelle and I went to that concert thingy and missed it. Oh well. hahahha. it was still funny-ish ? the kids were sooo cuute. Then she sent me home. I watched Ghost whisperer marathon with my parents. (: but i fell asleep half way as i was so tired. haha. Then I woke up for dinner and normal stuff lah. and boom ! (:
So I'm blogging here just in case i have no time today to blog. it's already 1:39 and i woke up like an hour ago. haha. so late right ? i know. I have not showered guys ! hahah. I thnk i should and start doing my homework. (: I'm alone. ): So lonely. So yeah. Parents bought me food. nom nom nom. Omg, Guess what ? Myfridge is filled with Strawberries. (: yay !! but they aren't as nice as U.S ones. ):
I shall stop here and heaad of to the showers . (:
Raise Your Glass Cover by Megan Nicole and Jason Chen
