Monday, March 30, 2009
The memories of you & me cant fade away
Well, guys.. i wont' wanna blog much today cause as usal.. i have no mood or anything.. if you are wondering why.. there's no reason to it.. i mean there is.. but i'm not gonna tell youu..
Today in school, geography was last and it was so super boring.. nearly fell asleep.. so in the bus.. i was so high and random.. and Faria told Elliot i had too much sugar.. which i don't know whyy.. normally it's Faria who's high.. so yeahh.. and Dongkuk was like hitting me again.. well. i told him i'm ignoring him.. and he was like oh great. start stepping on my foot, pully my hair.. took off my rubber band, poke me, punch me.. and push my head.. well.. Nurlyana.. do you still think it's a good idea to ignore him?During Music, We(Jess,Nurlyana,Faria & I) were so high.. we were suppose to do something.. and so we've finished.. and we played around with the guitar. and Adtiya came scolding us.. and so we played with the keyboard.. and start pretending that we were playing it.. when it was recorded.. so yeahh.. and we change it to erm. Silent night.. and we slowed dance..i slowed dance with Jess.. the other 2 slowed dance with the air.. hahaa! then we change to.. erm.. i forgot the title.. but it was seriouslyy.. so nicee to be that high! hahaha! yeahh.. (: in water polo, i was so opened.. no one wanna pass it to me cause the first time they passed it to me.. they passed it to my left hand which i cut myself.. and it hurts. so i lost the ball.. and when i was opened they didn;t pass it to me.. and didn't manage to score.. stupid people.. except Nurlyana. she tried her best to pass to everyone in the team.. and Astrea.. Patrick was the worst. he wanna show off.. i was opened.. the other team was coming.. he passed it to Till which someone was blocking him.. urghh! screw him!
Apperently, I need to kill myself
Ashley cutted herself during waterpolo
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
10:35 PM
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Somehow he just makes me cry
Everything is scary to her now.. Who ever she talk to or where ever she is..She's scared now.. At one stage a 13 year old girl was so lively, so hyper, so happy and mostly.. not scared of anything. but now.. her heart.. seems to be scared of everything..She trys finding some where that she won't be scared of and fits in.. but she couldnt.. her heart is still scared of everything. When the Lightning Stirkes, she just sits in her bed and hug her toy and just starts tearing apart. When the Thunder Rumbles.. She just close her ears and making sure she didn't hear the thunder.. When the rain pours heavily, she just stare and starts crying.. when the wind blows, she could hear something which made her more scared... She never thought that this could happen.. her heart beats so fast that she feels like there's something not right..She didn't throw away the stuff her loved one gave cause that's the only memory she has with her now.. She kept it in the music box, so she won't be able to see.. Whenever she opened the music box, somehow.. her heart beats so fast.. and she starts crying. She tried to ask for a second chance but didn't make it because there wasn't a right timing at all.. Her lovely warmth heart became a cold heart with a hole in it.. She doesn't have any support now.. yes she does.. her friends.. but her friends can't get that cold heart to be warm again..She's really sorry that she wasted all her friends time to help her.. She just need someone to really understand her pain.. She needs him.. She needs him to help her get through the pain if he doesn't want US to happen again.. He isnt helping her because she didn't manage to let him know but all she could manage to tell him is 8 letters " I still lovee you & I miss you" but.. he didn't talk to her nor texted her or chat with her online.. and that was when she knew it was useless but her sister said that if you trust him, be with him.. and she listened to her sister.. and her sister even mention that she and him should give each other another chance.. but.. as I said.. she couldn't manage to let him know..
Apperently, I'm kindaa ******
Ashley wish that her heart wouldn't be in pain again
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
10:56 PM
Is my tears worth his heart?
I wonder if i actually should let go.. if i should not waste my time.. I wonder if he ever knows how is it felt like to lovee someone and just try to forget about the special person in a month.. or 3 months.. i wish somehow.. he would understand.. when i told him how i feel.. he didn't repl till now..what does that indicate? is it that we aren't suppose to be together? well. maybe.. cause our distance are so far apart.. but does lovee matters?
Todayy is earth hour.. told my dad. but same old same old dad.. didn't want to turn off the lights. but.. he made a good reason.. which is so true.. he said.. if you turn off the lights. and you use candles. it is polluting the air too.. and if it is earth hour.. that means people can't drive too.. cause driving will pollute the air too.. omg.. so true man! so yeahh. as i thought. i was like.. he make senses.. so yeahh. ahhaa..erm.. so yeah. and you know what? when it rainned at about 4 pm.. my father saw a really cool thing.. urghh! right before the car alram went off, he saw the reflection of the lightning on the car top..and then saw the lightning in the sky.. and then the thunder came and the car alram went off.. well. to me it's cool. not sure about you guys.. haha! erm. then the house kept tripping.. so yeahh.. and it was so scaryy and dark.. hahaa! and i saw my dad and my mum so cute togther.. they were next to each other and were looking outside at the rain.. haha! awwww.. so then my dad told me about his past.. as usal. when this type of situation happens he will start telling us his memories.. haha! (: so we went out for dinner.. saw a hot dudee.. and yeahh.. and at night.. erm.. somehting went wrong.. the house blacked out again.. and then when we check.. there was nothing wrong.. no ligtning nor anything.. so then we turn in back on. then 10 minutes later, it went out again.. and we did the exact same thing.. and it kept happening.. til it was 12 something.. my sister and i had to be like. the guard.. we had to turn it on whenever it went off.. so yeahh. then i said.. whynot i turn off my aircond. and it didn't trip anymore.. but it can't be my aircond.. cause it's connected to the other side ..so yeahh.. and my sister and i talked and talked.. so my sister said that if you love that person so much but don't trust him.. then what's the use of being together.. if you trust and love him.. then go for it.. so yeahh. i asked my sister whether i should go for it. and she said. yeahh i should cause i lovee him so much. haha! so yeahh.. chit-chat till erm.. 1 something i guess..
Sorry guys i post this post slow because the power went off. as i said. so i couldn't blog. so yeahh..
Aperently, I think i know what to wear for the dance (:
Ashley can't wait for the dance (:
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
12:05 AM
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Can you still be my shinning knight?
In the dark woods at night, i was walking all alone.. there was some creepy sounds around me.. i didn't know what to do.. suddenlyy.. i saw you, you save my life.. from that day i used to call you my shinning kinght.. but now.. you've left me alone in the woods again... are you gonna be my shinning knight to save me again? to save me from this scary world.. i try no to remember the pass.. but when the present took place.. everything just came back to you.. it just recall me and you in that scary woods.. i always wanna let you know that i miss you, i love you and wanna be with you .. but when i wanna tell youu.. i just stop myself.. cause i don't know whether it is a good idea to let you know.. i may hurt myself again.. i wish that someone would be there for me.. to help me with this situation.. but where do i find one? i do have lots of people helping me.. but i don't know whom to believe.. which ever decision i make, i think i'll still get hurt.. i tried to just let go of the image of you and me.. but everytime.. i look at the music box.. i start crying for your love again.. i start crying in pain.. i start letting my heart hurt.. i sart blaming myself for being so stupid to fall in lovee.. i most start to just sit and stare at the music box and recall every moment we had together and try to forget it as soon as possible..
Today, in school.. erm.. yeah.. NURLYANA wasn't in school =/ so yeahh..a s usal.. Faria and i were under depression (: erm.. Dongkuk kept pushing me before going in to ICT.. and erm.. Patrick was like:" it's not nice to hit girls" and i wa slike:" yeahh! exactly.. see.. patrick is such a gentleman" and dongkuk was like:" i'm not hitting, i'm pushing.. it's different" and then Patrick went and push dongkuk.. haha! thanks Patrick.. haha! erm.. so in ICT.. i was doing my stuff suddenly aditya(don't really know how to spell his name) talking to me.. here is the conversation:
Aditya Ashley
Ashley, Dongkuk wanna ask you out..
What the F!
So is it a yes? if yes i'll tell everyone; if it's a no.. don't tell anyone..
what the F! NO!
and then after that Dongkuk and i were speaking in mandarin.. and aditya got annoyed cause he doesn't know the meaning.. so yeah. here is the conversation:
Dongkuk Ashley
Ta shi ben tan! (he is an idiot)
Wo tong yi! (I agree)
Ta FENG le ( he is crazy)
Wo ye tong yi.. (: (I agree with a big smile)
And after ICT..Faria and i were walking back to our lockers.. as usal.. then TILL was like:" ashley, you should go out with Dongkuk!" and i was like! what the F! I wish everyone could stop that.. urghh! Nurlyana.. i seriouslyy gonna ignore him from now!! seriouslyy! erm.. so in the bus..i wanted to prank Dongkuk.. then Lateef went and called Dongkuk.. here is the conversation:
Lateef Navin Ashley
Helloo..
*pass the phone to Navin*
Ashley says Hi
NO NO! since when?
She's saying NO NO NO!
Here listen..
What? listen to what?
Ashley says she loves you and ahem(not gonna say that part.. it's really sick)
* hang up*
So yeahh.. what a dayy! urghhh!! oh well.. it's late.. gotta sleep
Apperently, I'm 100% that Dongkuk is gonna say what the hell to me tomorrow
Ashley hopes her sister won't cry =/
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
11:06 PM
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Shall we not bring up the pass?
I just sit and stare at it.. why must i cry over something silly? why? i know people will start telling me that becuase i'm so stupid for not letting him go earlier.. Yes.. hy didn't I?? wanna know why? cause it's so difficult to forget someone you lovee so badly.. I'll ask you guys.. how do you people get over someone so fast? i'll answer that for youu. it's cause you DON"T LOVE THAT PERSON SO MUCH!! but i loveee mine alot.. imagine that..
Today, erm.. as usal.. Dongkuk hitting me and stuff like that..so yeahh.. hah! the funniest part was on the way home.. i got dongkuk's number from navin.. and i wanted to prank call him.. so Elliot Pai was like:" can i prank call him?" so yeahh.. and he used navin's phone.. pray that dongkuk desn't know his number.. haha!! so elliot was like:"hello.. did you order chicken rice?" haha! and then dongkuk hang up.. haha! and he used Faria's phone to call and said:" about that chicken rice.. do you still want it?" haha! and then he hang up again. haha! so i text him.. saying that hope he likes his chicken rice.. haha! it was so funny if you were there.. haha!! so yeahh.. erm.. nothing much happen.. erm..before erm.. ICT i was crazyy.. and stupid people went and take our table in Science screw you! erm.. Ms. brooks has been really in good mood now a days.. well.. hope she stays that way till the term ends =PP
Apprently, I'm so weird
Ashley is not knowing what to wear for the dance =/
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
10:27 PM
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Shall i have this dance?
You know trying to hide the pain in m heart just made my heart weaken.. just made me weak.. made me think that Life is not worth it.. I don't know what to do.. people keep forcing me to get over him.. and on the other hand.. people ask me to wait.. which one? i wanna wait.. but i don't wanna fall into pieces again..
Today, erm.. the day started of with a gloomy and rainny day.. and the first lesson was PSHE.. wow.. i nearlyy slept.. haha.. but we ended up doing some thing that woke me up (: and i kept singning the song that Nurlyana and Dash made.. well. the lyrics is nice.. so as the tune.. the lyrics is so meaningful.. the first time i heard them sing, i nearly cried.. whyy? cause it's like.. it happened to me before.. okayy.. so bla bla blaaaa.. dongkuk been so mean to me.. and we kept like bullying each other and everyone thinks we are going out!! and i was like.. what the F!! get a life people!! so bla bla blaaa... nearlyy slept in maths today again.. and we didnt hae badminton today =/ instead we have this stupid bench ball thingyy.. and i nearly tore my right tigh muscle.. so yeahh. then during lunch.. erm Dash pushed me.. and i landed on that leg.. and it hurts so badlyy.. i cried.. so yeahh.. it's okayy Dash.. it isnt your fault. so yeahh.. no worries.. (: oh yeahh.. might be going for a dance.. wooo-hooo.. (: but no dates for this dance okayy! it's just a dance (:
Apperently, i have no mood to blog now cause someone pissed me off
Ashley is really not in a mood now; wanna kill herself soon!
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
9:59 PM
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Goooooooooooo Alice Smith!
Sorry guys.. I haven't been updating as cause i was of to Singapore for Seasac Badminton..Well.. erm.. i shall start..
19th March, Thursday
-woke up ; go to school ; study till the 4th period and then went off ; hugged all my friends ; and the journey begun... erm.. some people played cards.. then i went to sleep.. woke up...STILL in Johor.. went back to sleep i think.. erm.. bla bla bla.. reached singapore.. erm... went round and round just to find the YMCA.. eventhough is like right in front of us.. i think we went 5 rounds.. when we were like going round and round.. i was like:"wo hen er! wo yao chi.. saya sangat lapar.. i'm very hungry.." haha.. and then.. finally.. the bus driver just dropped us at the side.. and we walked up.. goshh.. and erm...went to our room and get change for dinner..erm.. then went to the shopping complex opposite.. and yeahh.. saw another school.. but no idea what school is it.. erm. then went 7-eleven to get some water and snacks.. erm. then back to the hotel... emr.. Isabella and Jennifer and i erm.. couldn't sleep.. and yeahh.. erm.. but then.. we fell asleep.. oh yeahh.. and Jennifer and I bang the bed's wood thingyy.. who on earth wanna put a wood thingy in front of the bed when the blanket is covering?! we won't know.... -
20th March, Friday
- woke up at 5:30.. erm.. went down for breakfast at 6:45.. erm.. ate half way then need to like rush my food cause it was 7.. and we have to be down at 7.. and yeahh.. erm.. the driver didn't know where UWCSEA is.. and so yeahh.. instead. we went to the school next to it. haha.. so yeah.. and when we reached there.. the girls game only starts at 2:30.. so we girls just support the whole day till it was our turn to play.. but the boys didn't support us =/ the boys had to play 4 games man.. sad case for them..erm.. so i was hungry again.. bla bla bla.. played with the Canadian school from Hong Kong.. they were like super good.. so yeahh.. went back to the hotel.. and erm. rest. was suppose to sleep early but we slept late... Isabella and Jennifer was like erm.. watching Twilight i think.. -
21th March, Saturday
- Edison called us.. In like erm 6:15 am.. and Jennifer started saying :" Oh shit Oh shit Oh shit!!" cause we were late.. and she wa slike:" Iz.. your Alarm.. why didn;t you set your Alarm?" and erm.. so happen Alvin, Nick and Steven woke up late too. haha!! so yeahh.. hmm.. erm.. then.. cause it was the last day of the competition, after all the games.. we had a gala dinner in UWCSEA.. and erm.. Isabella put like loads of make up.. aha!! and she put some for me too.. but there wasn't much difference. haha!! so erm.. manage to take a photo of Master Gavin.. Posing some more.. hahah!!!! erm.. so i lovee the fruit tarts and all.. haha!! erm. ate alot.. and erm.. after dinner.. we took photos of all the teams we played with (: and then went to erm. a hall and erm.. it's for the prize presentation..haha.. Isabella and i were like shouting.. screaming like hell.. hhaha!! so yeahh.. after we came out of the hall.. Edison was like:" You sad ke? didn't win" and i was like.. no lahh.. i'm just so tired.. and.. then we walked together.. cause jennifer and Isabella left me.. so yeah. and Edison ask again:" Are you like depress cause you didn't win?" and i was like:" No.. cause my back is like aching and i have to carry the badminton bag every single time when amy and nick doesn't" and then he was like:" come lah come lah..*taking my bag*" and i was like :" no need lahh.." and then erm.. when we went back to the hotel. everyone came to My room 821! haha.. partyy .. haha! then when everyone went back. Mr Christi was like:" is everyone safe sound in their rooms? did you guys had fun" and Isabella was like:" yeah yeah yeahh" haha! well.. again.. i slept early.. the other two busy watching their stuff -
22nd March, Sunday
- Got awake by Edison's phone call.. jennifer picked it up.. and they were talking.. haha..so sweet!! and Jennifer got angry cause Isabella's phone rang like 12 midnight and she didn't wake up and pick up.. and it was so noisy..haha.. so yeahh.. erm.. then we woke up.. erm. yeahh. and Edison came our room to pick us up.. aww.. haha!! and yeahh.. went down for breakfast.. and bla bla bla.. then 9.. left singapore =/ erm.. i slept like the whole trip home.. why? cause i was so tired!!! and there was nothing to do.. this time. i slept nicely.. why? cause the back row. i lay down on it.. hhaa! and Edison got like 2 seats left.. cause i took the 3 seats.. ahha! (: so yehah.. and Edison was like trying to sleep like how i slept. but.. he couldn't haha..! so yeahh.. he gave me and Jennifer like lots of chocolate.. ahha! mm-yummyyy! haha!! it was fun!!!-
The whole trip we(the whole Team) was trying to match make Jennifer and Edison.. and Isabella and i kept teasing them. ohyeahh. and there was once.. i think on friday.. erm..Edison came in my room.. and played UNO with us.. and then.. When Jennifer was like talking about her ex-bf, Edison was so serious on the game.. hahaaa.. he was like.. looking at the cards the whole time.. haha! before that he wasn't even paying attention to the game.. haha!! but the ex-bf was a whole make up! hahahaaa!! and he believes it.. so it shows he loves her so much!! woo-hooooo! ahhaa!!
Apperently, I took ages to write this post =PAshley had fun in SEASAC & MISSED IT SO MUCH!
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
5:10 PM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Who is KLASS?? ASS !! Wooo-hoooo
I'm not gonna blog much todayy. erm.. Florence.. the photo's will be uploaded in facebook yeahh.. (: anywayy... erm. i'm like half way packing for Seasac.. and half using the computer.. haha!! what can i sayy.. ISABELLAAAA!! you better find your camera if not i'll slap you in the bus.. and instead of bullying Alvin i shall bully youu! haha!! joking . haha (: but please.. bring your camera (: pleaseeeeeeee! thank youuu!! erm.. todayy.. in school. erm nothing much happen.. erm.. on the way home from the activity bus, erm.. lateef is too rich too be true man.. he texted faria:" helloo" and texted her again saying i'm bored. goshh. haha!! so we(faria & i) wanted to prank lateef.. haha.. but before i wanted to send.. faria got lateef's phone and she checked whether he has my number.. suprisingly he has. whyy? how?? who else? NAVIN!!! urghh.. goshh Navin!! okayy. so i texted him.. here is the conversation (:
Lateef Ashley
Faria loves you
No she doesn't..She likes herself. And i like someone else.
Hahaaaaa(: don't be mean to her. She loves chickens. you like someone? haha (: who is it? =P
This part of the message goes to Faria" don't tell her!!" This is to ashley i don't know.
Hahahaa. so i see you are keeping a seret away from the new kid.that's just mean.
No i am not.
You claim you aren't but you are =P
I wil embarras myself if i tell..
So yeahh.. that was what happen..nothing much. erm. hmm.. yeahh.. got to go now.. continue packing =PPP
Apperently, I'm excited and nerbous about tomorrow!!
Ashley is gonna slap Isabella if she doesn't not find her camera
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
9:03 PM
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
It's a day to forget and remember
Sometimes it seems esay.. but i tried and tried.. somehow.. i still can't forget you and forgive myself.. You know.... i keeping to forget okay.. i'm really trying so hard. and yet friends are pressuring me.. do you guys actually know how hurtful and difficult is it??
Todayy, i was loking forward for this day to come!! woo-hooo.. well.. first.. i planned to suprise wan yin at her party.. because i told everyone that i can't go. but florence knows the plan.. haha.. so yeahh..erm.. in school.. it really ended really fast.. haha. maybe because i couldn't wait for wan yin's party.. so yeahh. and erm.. malay was like erm.. the last period.. so erm.. i was really hyper and all.. but Flora was really down.. but manage to cheer her up abit.. i think.. and stupid Ainna think her accent is so nice and all.. screw her!!anywayy... when i went to wan yin's party.. haha.. wan yin and samee was like:" i thought you couldn't come" haha.. and erm.. carin told me that when i came, erm.. Mr.X said:' oh shoot ashley is here." *ran away*.. well.. we were scared to face each other at first.. but.. yeahh.. erm.. so i everyone in the party thought i was crazyy.. cause erm.. i was!! haha.. so erm.. Florence was like.. ashleyy come come come.. and yeahh.. and then i was walking to the pool side yeah.. suddenly Florence pushed me..and the pool water was freezing cold.. haha. so yeahh.. and we went back to the area where erm.. everyone was.. and i was singing erm thinking of youu.. and when i was singing suddenly i shut myself up.. cause somebody might misunderstand yeahh.. so yeahh.. took pictures with good friends.. but idiotic boys tak mahu take. who cares.. (: haha.. so erm..i pushed zheng yang down the pool for revenge. and he spited like erm.. water at me.. urghh.. so yeahh.. i was abit exhausted.. but i was really hyper at the same time. lots of stuff happened.. well.. erm.. the boys are like super shy.. i was like.. hug hug hug.. come come come. and only like erm.. 2 said okayy. the rest were like... no no no.. so yeahh.. haha.. lazy to explain. cause i'm like hungry,tired and need to wake up for school TOMORROWW!!!!.. everyone lucky-nya boleh tidur till late late.. haha!! anywayy.. i'll upload pictures by post and post yeahh..
Apperently, I'm so hyper cause i don't wanna show any depression to anyone (:
Ashley really is freaking everyone that was at the party, espically nick teh
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
9:10 PM
Monday, March 16, 2009
Sometimes everything you wanted isn't everything you need
The darkness just seem to scares me ; The coldness seems to freeze me ; The warth i used to get was from you, and now that you are gone.. I'm scare, tired and cold... I've tried everything i could to get you off my mind.. but why can't the picture of us seem to just stay in my heart and my mind.. it feels like you are playing a game with me.. and the game isn't the game I'm best at..so all i want you to know that.. I had enough playing the game you set up.. cause it's really been making everything spinning and worst..
Todayy, when i wake up.. i couldn't open my eyes.. all i could do is just go back to sleep.. not wanting to go to school..when i went to school.. NURLYANA was in school.. and Faria and I were both under depression.. and i was known as the crazyy depression.. and after Faria so call gave me this "just smile pill" Faria was the one went all so crazyy.. and when they were talking about DK and Yoo Jin, i was like..:" i see the connection" and everyone was like. staring at me.. and SHandi was like:" yeahh.. me and DK right?" and i wanted to tell her " back off bitch" damnn.. the class was so.. not like.. usal.. like erm.. 3 people weren't in school todayy.. and After water polo, i got up.. and when i was walking.. i was like.. i was unstable.. and nearlyy fainted.. but i'm okayy. then.. suddenly everything was like white. i couldn't see at all.. it feels so.... so during break.. Loni!! thank youu for all the sweet sugaryy stuff..!! erm. then during lunch.. we wanted to go to the sick bay.. but the nurse was at lunch break too.. so we went and eat first.. and when we went back.. she wasnt there too.. and for the last time.. she was there.. and Faria wasnt feeling good.. same as me.. and Faria left me in the sick bay.. and she went for class.. end up..Faria, Kathryn and i was in the sick bay.. when i was resting .. suddenly Faria moved to the bed next to mine.. and erm. she had a really hard time breathing.. she had an asma attack on staurdayy.. goshhh.. and this morning before she came to school, she fainted.. so yeahh.. i wasn't suppose to go for activities but i still went.. Shhhhh.. and the badminton drills were tiring.. goshh.. but yeah..luckyy i went for the badminton.. if not i cant work on my doubles.. and SEASAC is this thursdayy!! i repeat THIS THURSDAY!! with CRAPPY teachers GOING!!!.. damnn.. and my brother and ahem. look so cute.. but why why why? why aren;t they together!! arhh.. well.. i won't blog much now.. cause my eyes are burning.. and it's late.. so yeahh...
Apperently, she doesn't know what to do..
Ashley thinks tomorrow she'll scare everyone (:
Ashley signing off
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xoxo
ashleylicious
11:00 PM
Sunday, March 15, 2009
I'm blinded by the white light
You know what's weird.. I'm using a guy's name so i could get over Mr.X.. and that's not me.. i don't use people.. No one could see that i was just using his name.. till my sister told me that she knew i was using it.. cause.. she said :" how can you forget about someone so fast when i got over mine 2 years eventhough we were together with him 2 months.. but youu.. you and him were together for 1 year.. how can you just forget about him like that".. i agree with youu.. but i still wonder.. how did he get over it so fast.. well.. life is always unpredictable.. we'll never know what's gonna happen next... so i gotta face the fact that he is over it.. and we are done.. and i gotta get over it too.. but i need time.. so please, my friends.. stop pressuing me.. that's not what i need now.. a true friend doesn't pressure me just to get over a person =/
Today, it's a sundayy... happy sunday??!! well. it was okayy.. my sister woke me up todayy.. i was sleeping so nicelyy.. she woke me up like at 11:30.. and i was still so tired.. goshh.. totally not me.. and i went back to sleep for a while.. and bla bla bla.. went down about 1... and then.. i ate alot too.. seriouslyy!! it's not me...!!i dont know what is up with me todayy.. YES!! cousin came.. but the younger ones.. urghh! wanted to talk to elaine man..!! omgg!! about time elaine!!! last 3 moths ago you were like.. NO NO NO i don't wanna change school.. and Now you want too.. haha. so i see that MGS sucks now.. haha!! i really pity youuu!! anywayy.. went dinner with them.. OMG!! i loveee my cousin's car.. arhhhhh!! damn nice.. haha..!! (: well.. apperentlyy shea zheng said my mood is really bad.. uh huh... well.. it is... i mean.. i just don't know what to do now.. YOO JIN,NURLYANA,SIEN WEI, SAMEE,FLORENCE!!! help me =/ *tearing*
I don't know how am i gonna continue suffering like this.. i try everything to make myself happy.. but i still can't.. i can't do anything but just sitting staring out and think of youu.. so i'm saying here.. that would you give me a second chance?
Apperently, her moods now swings really fast
Ashley wishes everything would be fine now
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
10:02 PM
Saturday, March 14, 2009
This is not a fairy tale
I don't know how to go on like that..at one stage i felt so close to you again.. i felt like we could talk till midnight.. till our parents scold us.. like what happen last time.. but.. now... it's so weird.. we have nothing to chat about.. In my online list.. all i could do is just to stare at your name.. and wonder should i say hi first.. but if i do.. we will just chat for 1 minute...and we won't chat with each other anymore.. i don't know what to do now.. i tried doing stuff to get you off my mind.. but i just can't..i'm sorry guys if i let you down.. but this is how i feel.. and you can't change that.. sorry.. =/
Well.. as i said.. gonna post 2 post todayy.. erm. Liverpool WON!! 4-1!! beat who? MANU! hha.. in your face =PP.. and that's so GOOD!! keeep on the good work (: erm.. Nurlyana is in singapore now. =/ haha.. i think she's gonna let her sister see the video we made for her.. haha.. it's so funnyy.. my sister and i kept singing.. but i suck so badlyy.. and erm.. my dad got angry of me.. because my mum's friend called when she wasn't around.. and i took a message.. and i remember the name.. but suddenly i forgot.. and my dada started saying:" you so shy to ask.." bla bla bla.. and he walked away.. my mum was also angry.. my brain was seriouslyy wasn't thinking.. even now.. it's like killing me..!! I'm sorry okayy! i guess they say friday the 13th is unlucky?! but no.. it's saturday the 14th...I tried all my best to help giving what i remembered.. Seasac is just next week.. and i'm still not well?! i hope i'll be well soon.. i don't know what to do now..seriously.. i'm life is so screwed up.. my life is so darn complicating. and stupid guy thinks i like him.. honestlyy.. to that guy.. you are so fucking annoying!! you think you so cool? urghh.. you aren't at all!! I'm gonna stop here cause i feel like i'm gonna faint..
Apperently, i think i will faint in a few minutes time
Ashley wishes that 28th may didn't enter her life
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xoxo
ashleylicious
11:02 PM
It's just a total freak show
Signs on the road.. are signs to make sure you won't get lost.. and you gave me a sign.. to U-turn.. but... i don't wanna take a U-turn cause i don't wanna waste my time going back to the pass..what had happen , i just gotta let go.. this is life.. this is what life is about..
no matter where we are.. there will still be bitter..if there isnt bitter.. what is LIFE??Yeahh.. he had.. given me a life to live with happiness and sweet memories..he has thought me everything about life.. he has made me stronger..yeahh.. being upset over someone is jsut useless cause you'll know that the person won't comeback.. cause that's what life is about.. moving on.. letting go.. gaining new experience.. this is just the start of life.. that's a long way more to go... so why being upset at the starting point?? cause you'll never get to the finish point.. just like a race.. you start and you just stood there instead of running.. and thought you could win cause the finish point was at the starting point.. in life.. there's no easy way.. we have to go through the hard way.. Yeahh.. why would he be upset? cause he knows that he has a life full of excitement in his life.. and he realize that.. and he doesnt want to stay in one point only..
that was my own words.. telling sien wei everything on facebook.. todayy is a saturday.. and a boring one.. i woke up at 9 to get readyy.. but end up we left the house at 11.. so we went to the Taylor's in Sri Hartamas.. then go to the Subang jaya one.. yeahh.. haha.. and. hmm.. i think what my sister said was right.. i should take Culinary arts.. haha.. and erm.. i was so hyper earlier.. but not now.. now i'm like super bored. friends all left me to go makan.. hahaa.. jokingg.. haha.. soyeahh..i'm just so bored.. that;s why i'm blogging earlyy todayy.. and editing photos. haha!! i will write a second post later if i'm bored again (:
Apeerently, i'm so bored
Ashley lovess the hyper-ness that she had just now
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xoxo
ashleylicious
5:17 PM
Is it too late to let you know?
How am i going to live a life which is so complicating? yes, i do have great friends around.. i do have bored people annoying me.. i do have people that love to tells my secret.. yes i do have all sorts of people in my life.. and that's what make life.. LIFE!.. but.. when he came into my life.. i was like.. wow.. but now.. we aren't.. and when i try to get over him.. i certainly did... but.. some how.. he's lke giving signs not to let go now.. but do you think it's abit too late?
Todayy, is a FRIDAY.. for local schools, they'll party all week as they have have a week off. but i prefer to go to school.. with all the new gossip, new hyper-ness, new titanic boat, new excitment, new reports, new crazy-ness... but mostlyy.. enjoying my lunch time shouting into a camera.. haha!!! I lovee lunch time!! not because we get to eat!! because.. because todayy.. we were so hyper.. haha.. Nurlyana.. try sending me the video =P haha. on monday we should take one for Elana's mum.. haha!!!.. and before i go SEASAC.. so i'll try to bring my camera and we shall be so hyper.. haha!! ELANA!! you better bring yours too =PP haha.. well.. today people thought we were crazyy.. cause we kept saying "happy birthday.. sweet sixteen annd yoo jin kept saying joe jonas' and we started arguing.. haha!!! and then.. erm.yeahh.. haha.. and cause there's this necklace i got.. which is like a broken heart.. one side of it.. and it says "tie".. and all my friends fell for it.. i said the other half is with someone special.. haha!!! they thought the other half says "sweet" haha!! in malay AMIR KAMAL! was like. haha!! and MELVIN TING was like.. so racist.! haah!! haha.. well.. in the bus.. i was seriously.. like not in the mood. i was like.. i don't know why lah.. but yeahh.. all i could do is to think about those times.. well.. haha!! joking.. you guys fell for it? haa.. FARIA!! don't skip school..!! school is like.. live-less without you.. and plus. our titanic boat nearly sank todayy.. =/ OH goodness.. finally you realize you are annoying..!!
Apperently, i wish i could see him on her birthday party, NOT!
Ashley wishes he never came into her life =(
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xoxo
ashleylicious
12:16 AM
Thursday, March 12, 2009
The voice of yours just made my heart beat faster
Your voice just made it more difficult. we were so comfortable talking to each other now. it feels like how we used to feel when we were once an item...I just don't know how to let you guys know how i really feel. but must i show you guys how i feel towards all these? if i explain, mostly you guys would say it's just imagination. but NO! you guys don't even know how it feels like. like last time.. i told my friend how i feel towards him.. and she just said that we are just friends just because she doesn't believe in love.. Not that i'm blaming her.. just.. never mind..
Well, yesterday was KELVIN LEE YEW FEI's birthday.. i wished him when i was on the way to school.. erm.. yeahh.. so i told him if i had time i will call him.. and well.. yeahh.. i mean.. the call ringtone came up and i just hang up.. and 1 minute later he called again.. well.. it was so funny talking to him.. haha! but he just made me feel so jealous! he's having the cake i loveee! goshh.. and guess what? he asked me to roll to his house.. interesting.. haha! well.. erm.. then for a while we hang up.. and he called again.. and i was suppose to call back.. but i told him that i'm abit busy.. and gotta rest.. cause i ain't feeling too well.. and i asked him to enjoy his cake WITHOUT ME!!! haha!! it just reminds me of old times.. haha!!
Today, nothing much happen.. when i walked in the mandarin class, elliot was like:" eh ashley! you are my friend...... ON facebook" and i was like. uh- huh.. and everyone was laughing.. and then.. during break.. it was.. this thingyy.. for the international week.. erm..sharing food?!so when we(faria,nurlyana and i ) went there.. it was so pack.. and we couldn't get any food =/ only faria.. cause she was like.. WOW! haha!!.. but end up i took this bread with cheese on it.. YUCK! and i took some thingyy lah.. same goes to Nurlyana.. hmm.. then erm..and then.. cause i pass by Elliot like loads of time.. and.. never mind.. okayy.. so then erm.. i went to the DT block to finish off.. but i didn't understand what the hell they want to do.. i was on the last task..! stupid navin!! ask me for help!! and said :" I HOPE YOU LOSE IN YOUR ISKL GAME !! and i was like.. what the hell.. who cares.. and then.. when i was running for science because i was like late.. i mean.. i didn't have lunch.. and i just came out from the DT block late.. urghh.. and then i was starving!! goodness!! then when i was walking back to my locker, elliot was like.. ashley.. *putting out his hand* so obviouslyy i slap his hand right..? haha! so yeahh.. then i had a badminton game.. and i won singles.. but doubles lost.. but it's okayy.. i don't mind.. haha.. then when we were going off to ISKL.. Alvin was like:" i don't like you..everytime bully me" haha!! and when we were on the bus.. he told everyone what happen.. about yesterdayy. me saying it was sad losing to ahem.. ahha!.. haha.. so before we left ISKL,we gather around and said:" THANK YOU ...." i forgot what was the last word haha.. so yeahh.. so then.. before that..i put my hand in the middle and Alvin hit my hand so hard.. and hit his back... and he waslike..:" ouch! see red adi.. Nick nick nick.. see " *doing sad face* and then my brother was like:" who dares to bully my sayang?" *walking towards to* and iw as like walking backwards.. haha! so funnyy.. but sorry Alvin.. you hit me damn hard too lah.. =P haha.. so yeahh.. was stuck in a jam for 1 hour.. crazyy man.. oh well.. i won't crap much now.. *yawn*
Horoscope=The advice that you dole out to friends today will be taken very seriously by them, so be careful that you're not too flippant about what you tell them to do. Your influence over people has always been strong, but right now people are looking to you for answers more than ever before. There is something about your way of being that really connects with other people. You're never aloof, you're never distant. Look for your relationships to grow even stronger today.
Apperently, I seriously need good advise...
Ashley wishes that she could get answer!!
Ashley signing off
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xoxo
ashleylicious
9:53 PM
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
There's always gonna be another mountain
The Baju kurung that I wore today
Is it just me or is it you? did you even mean the word "move on"? i thought you did.. but.. as i look.. it doesn't seem like that.. and now, it's just making my head spinning.. making my head to think whether should i stay or should i let go. i got rid the picture of you out of my mind, but.. now.. it just seems to come back every single time someone talks about you or whenever you are online.. it just kept reminding me that we were once so chatty with each other, so comfortable with each other.. but now, it's like.. we dont talk in msn.. we don't talk much when we go hangouts.. we just sit and stare.. waiting for one of each other to make the first move...i tried so hard to get the picture of those sweet memories with you out of my mind..and somehow, you just kept giving me signs that i shouldn't let go.. which one is which?!
Sorry for not blogging yesterday.. well.. yesterday, i nearly collasped in school.. i wasn't feeling too good.. in the morning, it was PSHE and i wasn't really feeling to great already.. and i told Nurlyana.. then she said try to control till Drama.. cause we had to perform.. so yeahh.. and erm.. during break, Faria,Nurlyana and I went to the sick bay.. the nurse just gave me some thingyy for something.. so then erm.. During P.E i was okay. but when it was geography, i was like :" i'm gonna die.. i feeling like dying" i kept saying that to Nurlyana.. cause i was seriouslyy gonna die!! so then... went to the canteen for lunch, still didn't feel so good.. then during the assembly, i was better.. but after that..i wasnt looking too good.. Faria saw me like i was almost gonna collasped.. so she said i should go to the sick bay.. and so yeahh.. i went.. and i slept there till school ended.. well.. i felt better after that..(: and when i went home, my dad was like you should go and see the doctor.. so i went.. stupid.. why must there be alot of people.. but who cares.. so then.. erm.. it was my turn.. blabla.. took the cold medicine.. yeahh.. and then went to sleep =P
TODAY, was a dress up for international week.. i wore baju kurung.. thanks to Nurlyana.. (: okayy.. so then.. when i first when to school, Nurlyana saw me and she was like:" Ashley! it fits (: you look great " and i was like.. erm okayy.. haha! and then erm.. i went over to elena's, sakura,rizuko's locker.. so then when i went over, elena and all suddenly was like:" OMG! Ashley you look so pretty!!!!" and Loni said:" BLUE IS SO WAY YOUR COLOUR!" and i was like.. okayy.. and it's Nurlayan's baju kurung. (: and when we were walking to the music block, Nurlyana was like:" don't tell anyone that is mine cause i don't like it" and i was like.. okayy.?! oh yeahh.. so when we were walking right.. Alvin and Melenie was in front.. so then Alvin was tlaking about yesterday's badminton game.. so he lost right.. so he was like:" Damn it. i lost to Renaldo"and i was like:" AWW.. how sad!!" and then.. i quickly cover my mouth with my hand.. and Alvin turned around.. and he was like:" at least the last set i lost to him 25-23" haha! and when i said aww how sad, everyone(Melenie, Faria,Nurlyana) was like OHHHH. haha!! then.. Alvin was like:" You bully me again!! you everytime bully me" haha.. and i told Faria and Nurlyana that it was nice bullying him.. haha!! so yeah.. and erm.. hmm during break!! We(Faria,Nurlyana,Me) went to our titanic boat (:!! so yeahh.. and erm.. then.. erm.. Faria wasn't feeling too good.. so it's her turn todayy. and Nurlyana was like;" tomorrow it's my turn.. no!" haa!
Oh yeahh during the resgister.. Mr Hamilton came in.. and then.. he wa slike:" okay.. let me see all the dress ups" and he started with Nikola.. and then Andrew then Shandi then Fankie then Hannah.D and then me.. when it was me.. he was like;" woo. that's lovely.. stand up.." *standing up* then he was like:" spin.." *spinning*.. haha.. and i was like.. omg.. haha!! luclyy Nurlyana did the same thing.. but she didn't spin =( haha.. then we took group photo's. (: Nurlyana and i were late for maths becuase we wanted to pick Faria form the sick bay.. but she went to maths already!! and we were like.. OMG!! FARIA!! and i was like. gosh.. running in the heels to go to the sick bay..and she wasn't there!!!! so yeahh.. i think it was the Medicine that make me all drownsy.. i felt so tired too..so yeahh.. =/ that's my day...
SCREW ELLIOT!!
Apperently, I don't know what do to.. anyone can help?
Ashley wishes that a small secret wouldn't be a big blow up
Ashley signing off
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xoxo
ashleylicious
5:49 PM
Monday, March 9, 2009
Cause it's just a C-A-L?!
A guy didn't love her enough, but a girl loves him too much.. what does this do? what will they do??
Hey readers. I went for a so called date.. ahah! well.. i'm just joking.. =P it's just a hang out with old friends. =PP well.. erm.. Zheng yang was really mean to me.. urghh.. same goes to bryan poh.. gosh.. hellooo..I'm like the one running everywhere.. i run there.. bryan is there.. i run the other side, zheng yang is there.. damn it yo.. i won't explain much today.. cause i'm really exhausted and i'm not feeling too well.. so yeahh.. after what we did... lois and i went out first.. where else the others took their time.. so while lois and i were sitting.. cause we were sweating and were so exhausted.. i waslike.. half dead on the bench.. suddenly there's this guy.. he passed by.. he put his hand onhis face.. like his trying to hide his face.. so i turned and looked.. and guess what!! it is XXX! holly shoot! i was like.. Crap.. is that him? it better not be.. please.. please please please.. but well.. luckyy we didn't bump into each other.. so then.. erm.. well, i went to ask the clown for a ballon and he gave me a balloon without a shape =( then they..(the gang) started to ask the clown for balloons.. haha! everyone waslike looking at us cause the clown was like:" all of you must be below 10 to get a balloon" and so.. we all said we are 3, 4,5,6 and stuff like that.. ahha! Oh yeahh.. i bumped into alot of old friends too.. ahha! so yeahh.. pictures will be uploaded when i have time (:
Apperently, i think i'm gonna take revenge on zheng yang and bryan poh =P
Ashley had the best hangout ever!
Ashley signing off
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xoxo
ashleylicious
10:39 PM
Killing me softlyy
Why must i get a cold like 2 days before drama thingyy. ?! oh goodness.. but don't worry Nurlyana.. i will still be in school okayy (: hmm.. thank you Nurlyana for the baju kurung.. i need to repay you.. by..?? ice-cream? haha!! oh yeahh erm.. the rihanna thnig right, Nurlyana.. i've gotta see first yeahh.. not really confirm.. if it's confirm that you can come.. erm.. then erm.. the plan is that..erm.. either i dont go for badminton competition.. or.. unless.. erm.. you come along with me to ISKL =P then we'll go together after that.. (: then i'll stay over at your place.. well.. that is if it's confirm okay.. (:
Today.. nothing much.. writing my eassy like for the whole day.. erm.. then erm.. bla bla bla.. can't really blog now cause not really feeling too well.. sorry guys..
Apperently, I think i would be really happy to see them tomorrow (:
Ashley can't wait for tomorrow's hang out(:
Ashley signing off
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xoxo
ashleylicious
12:22 AM
Saturday, March 7, 2009
The time says that i should let go, but my heart says no
Might wear this for Sports Award
Don't tell me where the road ends because i don't wanna know.. What had happend,had happened.. let it go.. let the time to take all the sadness away.. yes, i'm doing it.. but.. my heart keep telling me that.. how can i say forget such a thing when it really hurts so badly?!what hurts the most is trying to talk to you, trying to pretend that everything is okay...
Today, my day was okay.. normal weekend.. but.. it isn't that normal.. i didn't have the mood for anything.. weekend or school.. school is like killing me now.. it's not the teachers or the subjects.. but one thng i'm always looking forward to is meeting all my friends in school. example :Nurlyana, Yoo Jin, Faria, Elana, Isabella,Sakura,Dhakshenya,Astrea,Shameeh,Hannah.B,Nicola, Annabel,Flora,Michelle,Loni etc.. they are great friends with great heart (: Nurlyana!! do you wanna go to Rihanna's? if you don't then it's okay =P haha!! i'll call you lah =P well, nothing much to blog..
ON tuesday.. PATRICK you better watch out.. TWO girls are gonna kick your ass really hard!! =P
Apperently, i wish that Cat will help me out by giving some advise =(
Ashley wishes that cat will lend his shoulder for 1 minute
Ashley signing off
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xoxo
ashleylicious
10:31 PM
Friday, March 6, 2009
Great friends are what i need now
Once more, you open the door.... Do you guys know where did that come from? think carefullyy.. OH WHAT THE HACK! i'll tellyouu.. it's my heart will go on. haa!this song made my day.. (: i remember.. in the morning.. once i came to school, my mood was ruined.. because Dhakshenya told me something.. which seriously spoilt my mood so badlyy.. but it wasn't her fault. (: so then.. erm.. during break, Nurlyana and Faria.. made me happy (: thanks Middle girl and Giggle Girl =P haha.. so.. no idea why. suddenly the word TITANIC came out.. and i started telling Nurlyana.:" woo.. i wannabe the girl"* spread my arms open*.. and then.. i told Faria to sing that song.. and when she was singing, i sang along too. and i was like flying.. haha! well.. you won't get me if i explain.. cause you have to be there to know how funny it was.. so the whole break time we were giggling.. ahha! i was laughing like mad! haha! and hten. after break was Drama.. and so. i saw this picture.. and it was all blue, so i was like:" that's heaven" *pointing at the picture* and Nurlyana said:" I told Heavan was white?" so i said:" because Heaven is actually blue.. the white part was just the clouds " and then..we started laughing. becuase i was like going on high pitch.. like you've found heaven.. haha! and that stupid Patrick gotta ruin it!he was like:" So.. Navin.. why did you tell triston?" and Nurlyana was like:" OH JUST SHUT UP PATRICK!!!" well, thanks Nurlyana.. so during drama class, we did a play about this Australian myth.. it was so cool.. idea from?? Nurlyana.. haha.. FaRIA!! FARIAA!!! haha! so after drama, we were laughing like mad again.. haha! then it was maths.. as usal.. boring !! and then it was lunch.. haha! Faria, Nurlyana and i went to a place.. and when we were eating.. suddenly Nurlyana was like:" Spider! Faria Spider" so Faria and Nurlyana moved.. and wehn Faria was explaining something to Nurlyana, i was like:" Faria! Faria! Faria! " and she was like:" Ashley!" and i was like:" WHAT?! it was the spider! not me" haha! and Faria was like:" Oh.. that's very funny ashley.. you can speak to the spider?" and i waslike:" yeahh..like ghost whispper but i'm a spider whispper. how great is that!" and Faria was like:" what it is think right now?" and i said something.. i forgot.. then when we were eating.. Suddenly we saw Ms Nice coming and we ran away.. haha! it was such a nice day.. UNTIL! the day ended with..... ENGLISH!! and the BUS! gosh! it reallly sucked! i wish Faria and Nurlyana was in the bus..
Today.. Science was the one that relaly spoilt my mood alot!! Well.. it's not the teacher.. it's not the subject.. and i don't wanna talk about it in this blog here.. just ask me if you wanna.. (:
Apperently, i wish i could turn back the time and make sure i wont tell NAVIN
Ashley doesn't like how her life is now
Ashley signing off
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xoxo
ashleylicious
9:54 PM
Thursday, March 5, 2009
HOLLY CRAP!
Can you stop telling everyone? You said you would keep it as a secret.. and now.. it's lke.. everyone knows? he even knows? what the fuckong hell is your problem?! WOULD YOU JUST SHUT UP!.. It's okay if you tell him.. but then why would you wanna put the blame on my friend?, you freak.. and then.. when.. i asked you one more time..and you said another thing.. what the fuck do you want? why are you doing this? because you like it? because it's fun?
today was like how i've expected it..but not that bad. OH goodness!! NAVIN! stop being such a big mouth.. you are like ruinning my life do you know that?you suck so much you ass!you are killing me right now!! you are like THE FREAK! GOSH!! Do you want me to slap you? Do you want me kick you? stop it NAVIN!! i hate it.. canyou please stop!! you suck so much...!! gosh! i'm like not in the mood to blog now!
Apperently, i feel like kicking navin's ass!!
Ashley will never ever tell navin anything from now onwards
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
10:18 PM
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
When you say it's the best
I kept wondering.. is it true??! shall i make the first move? Shall i just keep quiet? Shall i just pretend that everything is normal?
Today, in school.. hmm... got Art first.. hmm.. My Art piece is ruin!!! RUIN!!! IT SUCKS!!erm. then erm.. History.. nothing much.. then erm.. it was Science.. hmm.. i wasn't feeling too good after the experiment.. i almost fainted.. then it was maths.. went to ICT room.. to have WORLD MATHS thingyy.. it was fun.. =PP then erm.. had mandarin last.. omg!! feeling like killing elliot.. goshh!! Pissed me off!! then on the bus.. NAVIN AND HIS BIG MOUTH!! :" James can you keep a secret?" James :" OH SURE!" told the secret.. James:" OMG!! Ashley likeXXX!!!" (not gonna say the name here! and he said it so loud!! and iwaslike OMFG!! and then Navin kept asking whether he could tell some other people! what the hell is his problem?! wanna tell people's secrets? GOSH!! but well.. tomorrow.. my day will be ruined!! my day will be a bad day!! cause Navin had a plan.. a so call mission?! and i was like.. NO NO NO! aww!! goshh!! NO NO NO!!so then i called Sien wei.. cause i was lost and cofuse.. and well.. maybe she was right.. no pont looking back?! well.. we tlaked for 15 minutes ++... haha..it was fun talking to her. (: okayy.. so now erm.. hmm..sister in jason mraz concert now! =( and i'm at home.. working on my darn speech..!! urghhhh!!
Apperentlyy, she's not gonna enjoy tomorrow =/
Ashley actually can't wait till tomorrow?!
Ashley signing off
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xoxo
ashleylicious
9:29 PM
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Something deserve more
I'm so confuse now.. I'm not too sure what i'm doing now.. I need someone to be by my side now.. it's so difficult.. I'm not too sure why does he cause so much trouble to my life.. i try not thinking about it.. but whenever.. i look back.. it only reminds me of youu.. how can i sleep ? everytime when i try not to look back at the pass, my mind just kept playing the same old memories.. I really need you to be next to me now.. but are you willing to be there for me?
Sorry readers for not updated for two days.. i've been really tired.. whenever i wanna update, i'll fall alseep cause i was seriouslyy exhausted..well.. erm.. mondayy.. we had water polo.. and the warm ups.. i nearly drowned.. why? cause i went to the deeper end this time.. and plus.. the coach was like giving us this game.. which was reallyy bad.. you can die..!! like me.. nearly drown.. wanna know what was it? well. you and your partner.. hold each other's heads.. and push them down.. and make sure your partners doesn't comes up.. and you'll win and get to go to the next round..erm.. and then erm.. nothing much happen..then after school, we had a badminton competition.. with MKIS.. well.. a friendly game.. i think.. i won all my games.. i think overall.. KLASS Beat them... and on the way to MKIS.. Steven was annoying.. Amy, Illia, Nick, Alvin, Jennier and Issabella.. were saying that we should say ASS CRACK as our cheer?! haha!! well.. Amy and Illia were the ones who kept telling everyone to do it.. and when we were there, we didn't say that.. why? cause they said it isn't nice to say that.. but.. we are gonna say it during SEASAC.. erm.. ohyeahh.. on Sunday night.. my sister and i had a night out.. haha! with? where? with the camera.. and in our room.. haha!! amy was testing her skills.. and she's really good.. and we slept like 1.. gosh.. haha.. the next day i was like half dead!!! So erm.. todayy.. we were suppose to have a game with GIS. and you know what!! they CANCEL IT!! SCREW THEM!!! urghh.. so i stayed back and went for ART CLUB with Nurlyana, Astrea, Yoo Jin, Faria and others.. well.. erm.. obviouslyy.. Nurlyana, Astrea, Faria and Sheemah and i were doing our art homework.. and the rest were doing the task they we suppose to do.. erm.. well.. hmm.. then on the way back.. Faria and i went crazyy.. and Lateef was like:" you two gone mad.. Look at her.. she's mad(talking about faria0. and faria kept talking about harry potter.. and she start saying random stuff.haha! it was really funnyy.. hmm.. it was such a dayy.. i was lucky that Ms Brooks didn't ask me to present my speech.. hahaha! well.. todayy.. everyone was happy for Yoo Jin.. I'm happy for her too.. but one thing i don't get XXX.. If he loves her.. and he got dumped.. why the hell he says he doesn't care.. it makes no sense.. so during PE.. it was badminton.. Dongkuk was like.. i'm gonna beat you Ashley.. haha.. i beat him this time.. hah! in your face.. haha!! then i gotta drop one level down cause i lost.. and i was suppose to play with Dongkuk.. and when he was lossing again, he was like:" ashley, i hate you, i hate you ashley!!" haha!! oh yeahh.. and stupid navin.. before PE.. Navin ws like:" Fine.. I'm gonna tell Dongkuk.." and i was like.. NO!! and he went to Dongkuk.. and then.. i pushed navin away.. haha! Then Navin said:" It's okay.. Dongkuk is a trustable friend.. trust him" and when i went away for a momment.. suddnely Navin was like:" don't worry he is a trustable person" and i was like.. URGHH!!! and when Dongkuk was walking away from his locker to the sport complex, suddenly he tapped my shoulder and said:" don't worry.. it's safe with me " and I was like.. Navin and his big mouth!! well.. when the bus was at shell station.. Sue Ann's stop.. then Sue Ann waved to me.. and John waved too.. and then he pat my head and he pinch my cheeck! urghh!!! so well.. yeah.. that's basically it =PP
Apperently, I'm so confuse.. I need someone to be by my side now
Ashley don't know what to do now!!
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
10:19 PM
The Baju kurung that I wore today
Might wear this for Sports Award 
