I knew something was not right for a moment. I knew something like this would happen. I knew loving so much would hurt me. I knew i shouldn't have said yes. But one thing I knew all along was how muuch I fell in love with you.

Heey daamn bee Heey. How are you guys feeling?! I hope you guys are feeling greeat (: Okaay. So in the morning, i was half dead and couldn't wake up. haha ! Oh well, it's school peeps. Ready to see EVERYONE! NOT! haha. jokeees. Anyway, maths first . OMG. it's so so boring. but heey, at least today, we had like a funny conversation. and kinda long one i guess?! So it was break then SCIENCE. grrr. but it was cool. then GEOGRAPHY. BORING . LUNCH. hungry hungry hungry. Malay, it was SO MUCH FUN! Mandarin. aheem. weird?! The teacher was teaching us in a way like we were little kids. She said dog and started barking. She said cat and started moew-ing. After school, did not go for badminton. went back by car today. had Mc.D (: yuuum. was so tired after that. slept through the whole journey ((:

Came home, went on FACEBOOK. and and and. naah. I don't wanna talk about it. =/

Well, thanks people for all the nice post.
Sorry Florence i over reacted. it was just cause. you know.. =/
Thank you Amy for the lovely post. It made me crry.
& Nurlyana. You said it won't make me cry?! i did okay. even though it's funny. but it did. !! I'm such an emotional person, what can you say maan.

"Hiding the pain isn't the solution, then why am I doing it? Fighting back the tears just make me wanna cry my soul out, then why am I doing it? Why why why?! "


Apparently, I really want a shoulder to lean on.

xoxo
ashleylicious

It has been a while since I felt like this again. Oh daaamn, Ashleey. You can't do this all over again.


Hey there peeeps! okaay. LONG WEEKENDS! woohoo. daaa booom!(: Me likeyy. okay. So i woke up at 9?! should be. Got ready. bla bla bla. Off to go to GARDENS. !! (: Omgg, Tanaya was so bluuuur. =) he didn't suspect anything. jeez maan. haha! so Watched New moon. it's was good. (: Flora kept going on about what happened in the cinema. aheem. FLORA, SHUT YOUR MOUTH FROM NOW ONWARDS! Anyway.. went to Dominos and makan. after makan-ing, brought the cake out and Tanaya was so surprised. ahhaa.! and then after all the cake eating and looking at the bill and the messed up cake, we gave him the card that all of us signed. (: a huge one. haha. and tanaya was surprised too and said he will frame it. haha. (:

So we wanted to go for 2 hours Karaoke.. but.. stupid people trying to cheat our money. so. too bad that we didn't get con! =P LOSER. haha.! So we went shopping. All of us went our separate ways. Boys saw Jordana and Shandi. We saw Kathryn and kinda of Jordana.. So yeaah, we had to leave :( but heey heeey. not the end yet!


Went and pick Dash up and went to Nurlyana's. haha! time for some sleepover awesomeness. (: we manage to act out like loads. haha! omgg. we had to change so many times. haha! but heeey, it's scaryy. according to NURLYANA.! (: Haven't seen the final bit yet. CAN'T WAIT! (:


So i came home. did nothing much. did homework. had dinner and took a nap((: I don't wanna talk muuch. (: BTW, 13 is gonna be an awesome thriller.!!! =)



Apparently, I'm missing you too much

xoxo
ashleylicious

heyyy there! I haven't blogged for ages, and i don't wanna leave it dead before i go for the sleepover todaay.! (: OMGGG! i can't wait for todaaay.!! =P

okaay. past few days was okaaay, I guess. Well, Faria and I don't reeally trust Lateef anymore, cause he lied to us.. and he's been takking stuff so seriously now a days.

I shall talk about yesterday. It was HILARIOUS !

So i went to KLCC and walked to PAVILION, shopped, and saw EMILY and ALANDO. so, we walked back to KLCC. and shop. Urrgh. i hate walking in KLCC. so freaking-ish PACK! anyway, so picked my brother up from PRINSTON. sent him to GARDENS and i slept. When my sister woke me up, we were at my grandparents place, and i was like" i didn't know we would come now! urrgh. i didnt bring my hair tie" haha. i know i know. you guys must be wondering why hair tie?! cause it's so hot there. anyway, we had dinner together with my cousins and grandparents. so after dinner. not really after dinner laah. but when everyone was done eating, and was waiting for fruits, we all started having a conversation. aheem

xoxo
ashleylicious

" tick tock tick tock. That's all i could hear. Papers in front of you, pencils and pens down. As i lay my head down, the Ticks and the TOCKs got louder. I told myself "time is running out. Why should i waste my time waiting? Time is going pass so fast, i don't wanna to cry. Time is running so quickly, I don't want them to leave soon. Isn't it scary?! Being out there alone when all you could hear is the clock ticking?! I was once alone in the darkness, wondering.. when will someone be there for me.. and the clock was ticking loudly. "I'm scared" cried myself.. No one was there when i needed them. No one was there when i needed support. No one knows what's breaking my heart. No one understands when i explain to them.. NO ONE. "

Hey there! (: It's a MONDAY! yippppeee -DOOOOOOOO. NOT! I was so freaking tired and i had to wake up for school. GRR. Mum tried to wake me up, i couldn't.. she shook me hardly and i finally woke up. Got ready for school. went to the bus stop. got on the bus. chit chatted. Lateef said this to Elena" I know you are listening . you just act you aren't" haha! that's what both of us do. =P high-5 ELENA (: anyway, reached school. helped Navin to train for biggest loser (: so kind of me. (: so the bell rang. ENGLISH first. the joyy. jeez. then break. urrggh. DT. omgg. about time. licked the whole bowl of chocolate. and Aditya came up to me and said" eww. you are crazy?1" and i went"not. it's nice, you want some?" and he was like" is it cadbury ?" and i said"yeaah" and he said" yuuum" but didn't take any. stupid. haha! I'm so kind to you Aditya and you are so mean to me :( haha!

HISTORY NEXT.! the JOY?! yay. almost done with the Prezi. (: LUNCH. urrgh.. drama. fun. Mandarin. BORING! urrgh. badminton sucky!

I was in the mood to blog jsut now but not anymore.

"Honestly, i know you care about me and you were worried. but it's my life. i know you tell me everything, but don't stalk me. I know you're curious, but pleasee. give me some space. I want to handle this myself. I know yelling at you is wrong now. but.. cause i know you'll just say I'm stupid. I still you want you in my life, and i will forever will. but.. stop asking me questions to everything i say, making me look like a fool or a dumbass in front of him. and now, he thinks I'm stupid behind my back. How am i gonna trust anyone. ? :'( "



Apparently, I'm crying my heart out again ;

"Looking at the rain drops. Looking at the sky as how it starts to cry. Looking at the wind blowing so hard like it's angry. Looking at the trees swaying like they are dancing through that pain their suffering. Every drop, every tear. means something. That day, rain rushing down, angry wind howling loudly, tress shed a tear, grasses tried to be strong. It was a sad feeling that day. I was thinking about how we used to be such good friends, how me and him used to tease each other, how I used to run around the school, how i remembered every sweet moments, how all the drama started, how people used to hate me, how every second with you is important. Now looking back at it, i'm starting to miss everything back then. Looking at you, chatting with you, you sounded so hurt. Yes you are, but i just want you to know that please do not hide all the suffering pain in you, you know I'll always be there for you like how you were when i needed you."


Hey there! (: it's been a while since I've updated. I know i know i know. I've been so busy. I've been so busy thinking about GCSE subjects. Oh how i wish they would stop pressuring me to take a subject they want and not what i want. Oh how i wish i could get up and be strong to let them know.


ANYWAY, On Monday, nothing much happened, badminton sucks like hell. On tuesday, nothing much either. On wednesday, it rained like hell.! My whole P.E bag got wet. :( ohhh. and i got moved up for Netball. still can't believe Ainaa and Kat didn't move up. they are quite good you know. anyway, stayed back.. went to art block. (: fun fun fun! (: On thursday, which is today.. I didn't go to school cause i couldn't wake up! It felt like i was drugged. seriously. OMG! so i woke up, cause of stupid noises! anyway, woke up continued reading my book. and I CRIED. NURLYANA. the book is so so so so SAD!!! and Faria, I'm already reading quite fast okaay. 2 hours.. like. reached up to 200 pages =P hhahaa.!! =)))))



Would you do me a favor? Would you promise me that you are gonna be alright?

I really wanna go back to the times when i last saw you, when we were together. When i remembered you not helping me in anything. that thought me to be strong. I really wanna go back to the time when we always wake up in the morning and start moaning about how boring and shitty the teachers are gonna be today. I wanna go back to the time when one day, we were all excited to wear the robe but soon broke down into tears. Oh, i dont want things to change so fast. Time passes so fast, and i don't know what's up with me lately. Blink of an eye, everything, everyone i once knew seem to grow so fast, change so much. but not me.. I really need someone now :'(


Apparently, I'm crying my heart out.

xoxo
ashleylicious

Hey there. sorry for not blogging for ages =P

So on Thursday, it was cool. we(Loni, Faria, Ainaa, Kat& I) had a rave at Jusco. it was so much fun. (: then had to stay back for parent thingyy. and omgg shit. finally my mum realize how much i wanna take those subjects I've been talking about. and she agrees and now, she disagrees. what in the freaking world does she wants?! urrgh!

On Friday, nothing much happened.. was so EFFING tired cause the day before i had to do all my homework at night and have to stay up so late cause came back late from school. about 9. =P nearly slept through most of the classes. Chit chat on the bus.. and came home. slept. showered dinner. and kinda-ish movie (:

TODAY. had to wake up so early and so tired cause slept late last night.. what time i had to wake up? about 7. total amount of rest=6 hours.! urrggh. had to go to the dentist.! grrr. so went there.. so sexy. omg. last wire to wear. nyhahaa. (: beat that people! (: urrgh. now i can't eat. ! so annoyinggg! hurts so freaking hell!! came home slept. WHAT CAN I SAY, I'M A SLEEPY PIG (: woke up, got really hungry. ate my sister's nasi lemak.. and then sent my brother to his tuition thingy and ate fast food with my mama.. (: came home.. did nothing much. (:


Urgghl still so hungry cause i didn't get to eat much! urrggggh!!



Apparently, I'm going crazy!

Hey bello hello! (: How have you guys been? SUCK! Today sucked! Why?! Well, Flora wasnt here. but Michelle and Yip. aww.! haha! they were suppose to be getting married in the end, arguing. oh well, poor Yip. anyway, so on the bus home.. nothing much happen. just Lateef and Ken started talking about Boobs and sick stuff. yeaap yeaap. sickness.!

HOLY freaking CRAP! Nurlyana, i can't believe he is that mean :( he should know that you guys mean so much to me. Damn damn dam. i think i made a wrong mistake AGAIN! I'm sorry Nurlyana for not listening! :(


Apparently, i wanna slap youu!

Hey there! (: It's been awhile. I miss Nurlyana. Well, today, Faria and I became Picachu! nyahhaa. silly i know. but hey, dont blame us! And Jess got annoyed :( I was making really random noises during HISTORY! NURLYANA, you should have been there.! Today went passed really fast!

`english- we had to present our presentation. and OMG! I screwed up!! :( sorry Mussy and Flo.. for not saying the end bit. which was suppose to be AWESOME. but oh well, GO ADITYA! your presentation is sexy and nice laaah. loads of eye contact. =) Wonder why the others like Rachel's and Oliva's. they had loads of info on the board! i couldn't even read!!

`break- Couldn't find Faria. Flo and i was like.. ahh when can that girl be. So i was like if i was Faria where would i be?*snaps* THE NURSE! haha! Well well well, and i was right! =)) don't worry, she's find.. She was there cause of Katlyn.. GET BETTER SOON!

`Dt- wow.. hahaa! I suck at make the edge bit.. i think i ruined it. Oh boyy. But i'm really happy with my shape.! =P ahh. I can't wait to finish everythingg! =))) FASHION TESTILES looked AWESOME! Ahhh! i wanna join. oh mama, please let me join...

`History- boring as usal. but i was hyper so not so boring =)

`Lunch- well, that i can say kinda boring. but we(faria& I) did our maths! =)

`Drama- Holy crap it was awesome! At first before we went in.. I waved to Ms.B and she went like" I don't wnat to see waving, i don't want to hear talking, no smiling" and i was like. holy crap she's in a bad mood. andFaria waved and smile and she yelled. we went in, and we couldn't blink, couldn't talk, couldn't smile. we gotta follow her orders. and in the end, it was a play. nyahhaa.! And i gotta say, Faria's group was cool. and i think my group starting bit was kinda cool! =) !! Nurlyana ! AGAIN! you should have been there!!

`Mandarin- BORING like shit.! I slept in class =PP shhhh.


So yeaah, i skipped Badminton. I told Edison and he was like" my ankle is also injured laah.." he doesn't care anwyay. nyahhaa. I slept on the bus. the whole journey.. Faria wasn't on today. I had a huge headache that's why i slept. i woke up, i felt like puking.. and that explains why i was kindaa not talking,Lteef.! (:

Came home, had some food.. slept.. dinner and here i am =PP

"i told myself, that i might be making a huge mistake. but then, i thought again and told myself that I gotta trust my decision to respect it."




Apparently, i think loads of people knows now!

Tata

xoxo
ashleylicious

It's not the time to come to an end. It's too fast. Why must time travel so fast?! Why must you leave? We will all miss you and your lawyer thingy. Everything won't be the same now. ;


Hey hey hey. So on thursday, nothing happened. Today, worst day i could say?! English was okaay. P.E was fun.. geography was so boring.. lunch was fun.. ART was super boring!! MATHS was worst!!!! I don't know what happened, but my ankle hurts. and you know what?!?! It's SWOLLEN ! interesting yeeah?! daamn dammn daaamnn! What did i do?! and something worst came up! :( I'm not ready to break down into tears again. :( but in the end, i did.. i tried not to, i just couldn't. I'm losing another best friend., not just any best friend. the main founder of the titanic :( i know it doesn't sound too far away, but.. it's just so far away for us. :(


My parents still doesn't allow me to take the choices i want for GCSE. !! urrgggh!!! i hate this.! I really want to do what i choose cuase obviously, i love it!!! urgggh!


NURLYANAAAAA! :( I'm under way more depression.. Why are things so complicated now?! Why? Why can't life just be simple?! :(


HOLY SHIT! shit shit shit.. freaking hell.! I need to talk to someone important about Ex, ex MR. XXX! if you guys get it.!!!!!!!!!! Florence ! You arent replying on MSN. what in the world are you doing woman!!



Apparently, I'm freaking out so much!

Hey there readers.! sorry for not blogging for long. So on Monday, i was kinda tired.. Badminton was funny. on tuesday. we learnt the thriller dance =P nyahhaa. we ruleeeee! (((:

and today, I'm blogging in the library cause the activity is cancelled! urrgh.. SO now Jess is going like" woo. see i told youthat Netball is on and not volleyball" but it's so stupid.! they didn't tell me that they won't send hthe girls team for volleyball! Shit this maaan.!I really wanted to go for Netball too. but oh well.. =/ If it's okaay, i'll try next year. i think.. !!

OMGG! i just realized that it's already November!!! shit shit shit shit shit! Time passes to fast... and term 1 is gonna end. i dont' people to leave! i don't wanna break down into tears like last term. daamn those companies that move poeple around.!!!

I tried not to think about Chocolate man! I was doing fine until he came back. damn damn dammmn!!

I wonder why is the library so cold! I'm hungry laah. i should have went back right?! nyhhahaaa.! On the bright side. finished my homework. nyhahaa!! ((: I shall blog other stuff when i go back and put a picture. nyhahaaa.

Hey hey hey people! I just came back from awesome parrrtehh! (:

Saturday. Went to Nurlyana's place to get ready. took 1 hour. we thought like we could do it in less than 1 hour. but failed =P anywaaay, after dressing went to Loni's place.. chit chat for a while. more people came. More people came=More fun. DHAKSHENYA was there! (: so tehre was dnacing, swimming, photo, library(porno), crazyness ; it was a blast.!! (: I can assure you that this is way better than AAR =P So waited for Faria's mum to pick us up.

Slept over at Faria's place with Jess and Nurlyana. and Obviously Sabiha too.!!!!! Chit chat. ate candies.. confession night was kinda a failure. did funny videos. FUNNY=WEIRD! Oh daamn . i just remembered that i wanted to do a HORROR movie. but didn't have time.! OH WELL.!! Slept at 4. next day woke up.. at 9 something. tricked Jess that she was "Sleep talking".. bla bla blaa. we went swimming. bla bla blaa. went to midvalley.

The Journey to get a TAXI was SCARY. why? There was a thunder STORM... we went out. and it was drizzling.. and we could hear thunder rumbling like every 5 seconds.?! lightning was strike laods of time too. scary! and we were looking for a TAXI! I had no one to walk with cause JEss has Sabiha and Faria has Nurlyana.. all i have is my bag. and i was terrified.!!!!! We finally found a TAXI. and the TAXI DRIVER was nice. and kinda weird to me..!! so reached MIDvalley. Walked for a while and Jess went home. then me..!!



How can the weekends be suckish?!!


There are a total of 200++ photos! (:
It's all on Facebook dudeees.! ((:

I WAS an ANGEL! =)




Apparently, I'm over hypered!

xoxo
ashleylicious