Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Forever isn't as long as it used to be
i've always thought that it is forever.. i've always thought it would last.. but then... i suddenlyy have this pain.. i'm wondering whether he has the same pain.. the pain which says that you are missing someone... i wonder if anyone knows how's the pain like... missing someone so badlyy.. missing someone which is so close to you...
I got a really bad night mare.. i woke up earlyy todayy.. i keep on thinking of *** *** ***... i don't know whyy.. the video that was made for him, kept playing in my mind... well.. people have to move on right? i think i rather move on than waiting...cause everytime i wait... i'll fall sick..stay up late, walk in the rain, run in the rain, stay under the rain,cry under the rain... just to wait for one person.. i know he love some other better person (: that girl is just so luckyyy..
She smiles everytime.. She is happy everytime.. She take it as if there's nothing to be worry about.. She be strong everytime...But.. deep inside... She doesn't smile nor be happy... She take it as if there's something to be worry about.. She is weak..She just make sure that everyone will be happyy.. and don't have to worryy about her.. But then someone.. Someone she met that saw deep inside.. saw what she was suffering.. But then.. that person left her.. and she was all weak again.. She couldn't stand up whenever she fall..Then suddenlyy someone 's hand was in front of her face.. She looked up and she saw that person getting her up.. But then.. when she wsa up, that person left her again.. and this time.. she's making sure that she would never fall.. to prove to that person that she is better off without him.. and to show him that she is stronger without him..But then.. he came running back to her..everytime when he gets dumped.. and she actuallyy was still in love with him... and she gave him so many chances.. and suddenly she found out that she was the spare tyre.. Because she was just so stupid to fall into his trap. and got blinded by love..She promised herself this time.. to give him one last chance.. and if he still does that.. the same rutine...then she will never fall in love.. Promised herself that.. if she would fall in love again... she will fall in love with the right guy this time... and won't make the same mistake...So.. that's the storyy of this girl.. this one girl.. which was hurt.. which.. is the blogger of this blog...which thinks that her love life is just a dream.. Anyway, it's time to log off..
And I just wanna show you
She don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable
Instead I'm just invisible
Ashley signing off
Tata
Xoxo
Ashleylicious
2:21 PM
