Friday, January 30, 2009
Why is it so hard?
It seems so hard to forget you. When your name came up, all I did was to stare at myself. And ask myself why am I crying? Why do I still miss you? Why are you treating me so bad?
Are you mad that you spread rumors about me? I’m not even there at all. Why would you do something like that? I thought we were friends. I believed you, I helped you. When I heard the news, I was mad of myself for making these type of friends, for tell you guys my secret, for keep every single word you said to me. But why now? Why there? Why me? Why did I come about? Why does everyone thinks I’m something that I’m not? It’s the truth. This is how I feel. So shea zheng, don’t come online and annoy me to think positive. Cause I’m trying, but it isn’t working because my heart is empty and has a hole in it that I, myself can’t fix it.
Today, my day was just great. It wasn't as great as how i enjoy the past few days. Cause this week I'm extremly exhausted and couldn't be bothered to listen in class. All i could think of is to sleep. I don't really have the mood to blog about my day today.. Although there's some funny part, but nehs.. Not gonna say so much.
As i ate, it just made me think of you. As i heard you were a good cook, but i wasn't in time to try your food. I didn't have time to taste your food. All i wanna do now is just to turn back time and just go to other place that i didn't meet any friends like i've met, that betrayed me, that back stabbed me. And i wish i've never met a guy which is so hard to forget.. So hard to move on. So hard to get over him
Awww.. Fernando Verdasco lost to Nadal! i hate Nadal.. No offence to Nadal Fans... But Fernando Verdasco is wayy better.. hahaaa! i don't know whyy.. but he rocks!! (:
Thanks michelle for writing on my hand :" Ashley rocks" you rock too!!! you rock so much man!! hahaa!!!!! seriouslyyyy!!
Ashley doesn't feel too good
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
7:22 PM
