Friday, March 5, 2010
Come on, just take my hand ;
* i miss you guys, see you guys tomorrow (: hope it will cheer me up*
"I count 1 to 3, take a deep breath, nothing is working out, I'm still crying"Hey hey hey hey! (: Today is Friday. I knew today wasn't a good day, as hm. last night.. I just couldn't sleep, couldn't breath, couldn't stop crying. For some reason, this pain in my heart.. seem to be getting greater and greater. As we were almost reaching school, my heart, it literally sank.. it was painful, i didn't want to go to school today, but i had to. I went to school.. pretending like everything was alright, put my headphones on, listening to songs.. which wasn't helping me at all.. I stared into an empty space.. wondering, why had this happened? then sat down with michelle and flora. talking.. keeping my mind off things.. was it helping? not really.. nothing helped through the day.. Badminton kept me off my mind for a while... thanks guys.. but still.. you guys are pure evil. Trainning was tough... but hey, for seasac right..
Was on the bus with steven only.. so annoying!!! went home.. watched AI.. came up to my room, tears started flow down. I couldn't hold it in anymore.. I told Flora.. and then my dad jsut gotta knock on my door and annoyed me and i got so angry, i yelled. oh, tell me what is wrong with me : '(
Went out and bought my sister her laptop.. she's showing it off now. she's so dumb in setting up. I tried to cheer myself. I told sister while shopping for her laptop, she wasn't listening and she didn't care. She didn't understand. When i need her now, she just don't understands : '( I really need you Amy.. I need a shoulder to cry on.. please..
I can't blog any longer.. It's hurting again.. my eyes are filled again..
Apparently, my heart is getting weaker and weaker..Ashley just wants you to know that it hurts so muuch
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
11:02 PM
* i miss you guys, see you guys tomorrow (: hope it will cheer me up*