Wednesday, August 27, 2008
a life full of sadness around me
a life full of sadness around me now a days.why must be happen when it's close to UPSR? what did i do to deserve a life like this?can i still live in this world?should i?or shouldn't i?everyone i walk pass.they are just so happyy..but then.i'm not.but aren't i?my heart beats so fast whenever i see you smile.it beats faster when you are near.but it beats slow when i heard the news.it beats even slower like i'm gonna die when i actually know the truth.so.it shows.i'm not meant to be with you.and yet i've wasted my 1 year 2months and 13 days with you.been hurting other people's feeling cause of you,been crazy in love cause of you,been scolded cause of you,been hated cause of you..it was okay that time cause i didn't mind as i have you.but not anymore.
people been talking time flies.yeah it does.time flies,and your feelings change.i understand.i just wanna get my old life back. i don't know who is this girl anymore,she's not ASHLEY, she's not who she is, she not the girl that was always cheerful.now, she's the girl who is stupid,sad,hated. she cires every night in her dream, she's always hurt. who is this girl in the mirror i see? it's not ASHLEY. it's someone else.but who?people also says miricrale happens.yeah it does. it does. i used to believe in it but not anymore.i only have yi tane, caridee,samee, ch'ng xin, sabrina to believe in now.there's others.but i'm too lazy to list it out.time to let you go then ba. you like her, go like her, you want her go chase her.but don't come back to me and ask me to give you another chance. i won't. if i will, you'll know the reason why..as we go on, we'll remember, all the times we spend together. i think i'll remember only not you.!
hate my life! hate this world! hate everything! why am i sent down here?for?getting hurt?wow!it's a succes.. now. i think i better get out of this world soon.so you'll be happy.hmm.i think you'll forget me.but it's better isn't it?ah ha! good.okayy..
tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
8:35 PM
