Monday, October 13, 2008
life is just so hurtful when you loose someone
everyone just thinks that my life is so great cause i have one guy with me for so long. does it make any sense? that's just one part.. but then familyy they are like the best but sometimes, i can;t say it. it's just so hurtful.. home i have problems; school i also have problems. where else i can go to get out of this life? where else? would someone plese tell me.. in school, whenever i see that person's face, it hurts me so badly.. if you don't care naymore, then what's so special about 28 may? and to someone.. i know.. i'm not messing up your life i didn't say you can't play with him.. let me guess, he told you everything.. hmm.. if you wonder whyy.. and why. i'm like so sensitive, you think back.. i'm not.. why can't anyone understand? why can't you all know what's feels like in my life? i know you are havong problems with you're family too.. but i don't wanna ruin your life.. it's just that day i sent you that letter.. is to tell you that it's the best way.. cause i don't want you 4 to argue cause of me.. please understand..i thought all of you would understand.. but then... instead.. you all misunderstood... okayy fine then.. i would try to get out of this world soon. as soon as possible so you won't have to suffer...
shoot.. enought with sad stuff.. after someone complain again..okay.. talk about todayy..
today, in the morning.. went in class. went to my place.(way behind) saw a puddle of water.. and then the whole back row became an ice-skating ring after tane and i did something. haha (: then hmm.. after recess, went science lab.. forgot to take my stuff down.. went up with tane,jx,and py.. while we were coming down.. we saw ahem.. not gonna say.. then i wanted to like you know la. trip him.. play around la.. but he didn't care. then py said:" he looks angry." but i was wondering why is he angry when during recess, i mean when we were going up to the science lab, he was so happy.. so i told py:" haiyo.. he don't care adi ma don't care la. i won't care about him la" then py said:" let me try to help you to calm him down" but i said:" no need la.. useless." so i won't really care about that person adi la.. let him be free.. then school over. then went back home. ate. then shower. then rest for awhile then makan dinner then eat fruits then watched tv for awhile then hmm... came up here.. checked my phone.. 24 sms.. all same guy. same message. saying:" why do you hate me so much T.T T.TT.T" so i was like.. i thought i forgive him adi for what he had done. hmm.. so haiz. lazy to reply.. then.. here i am. then no more..then
the ahem is yf
tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
8:34 PM
