Sunday, November 16, 2008
i can honetly say you have been on my mind since yesterday but not anymore
ah..Well.. i don't know what to do now.. should i forgive him? you see.. after that day happened.. look at c'box.. this guy named "passerby" claimed that he is my friend name tim.. but he wouldn't do such a thing.. so well.. yeah.. fine.. i'm the wrong one.. i hope you are happy now
LEE YEW FEI!!.. i hope you are.. do you get it.. that everytime when i know it is your fault.. i say it's mine.. just to make sure you are happyyy.. and yet i suffer..
i wasn't blinded by love last time.. but then suddenlyy i realized that i was blinded by love.. i was so stupid to fall in love.. but luckyy there's something that someone gave me.. it makes me feel better whenever i looked at it.. i gotta thank that someone.. but that someone never goes online anymore. i wonder whyy.. i really miss chatting with that person.. that person is so nice to chat with.. haiz..so yesterdayy was huang jun's birthdayy blash. it was fun man!! lazyy to explain what happen.. okayy.. so this morning my dad came in my room(as usal) to check on me. then he took the school mag and then i was up earlyy cause of him.. haahah.. then my dad say faster go shower then makan then go hospital.. haiz.. so i faster lor.. haha.. on the way there.. i learn so many nice things.. haha.. then on the way back.. i learned that not onlyy my life which is so complicating.. my mum's too.. haiz.. i wish i can do something. but i can't.. okayy.. so i came back.. watched a movie then. erm here i am.. haha.. hm... i'm not kindaa still sad.. and still hurt.. i wish that someone would just go online..so i can talk and ask that person for help.. please... i need help..
haiz.. my leg now bruce cause of...
NG SHEA ZHENG!! it's really bad you know.. is like you kena snake poision... gosh.. haiz... damnpainful.. haha.. but had real fun yesterdayy.. (: luckyyy
LEE YEW FEI didn't go.. if not my mood would gone bad!!! not just mine.. others too.... hope now
LEE YEW FEI.. understands that in my blog, i'm writing to him.. and hope he knows how is it felt to be so darn hurt.. while you don't get hurt..
You know
LEE YEW FEI, we used to have so much fun.. But now.. you'll mostlyy say it's my fault.. i don't care. anyway... now.. you are like.. not even fun.. and plus.. you know i see my friends relationship..theirs are like so sweet, romantic.. to me, i feel like we are just friends.. friends you know.. cause is like haiz.. difficult to explain to you.. it's not that i'm trying to compare our relationship with my friends.. it;s not that.. but i know you'll sayy i am.. so.. if you say i am.. what the hell la.. i don't care anymore.. i hate it.. everytime i have to suffer but not you.. and then you'll say that you are suffering too.. but i don't know. i know you'll say that... i know you, my dear.. but not anymore... not anymore..
NOT ANYMORE!!!
3:17 PM
ashley signing off