Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Is anybody gonna save me?
if you open your eyes, you'll see that something is wrong.. and yeah.. something is wrong.. you'll be thinking that something is wrong with me.. but yeah.. if you read my msn personal msg, you'll know why.. and you'll be shock... i just don't know why... it suddenly happen okayy.. just read it.. thanks.. I want to tell you, but i've no gust.. I hope you'll understand now..
Well.. today i'm going back.. i'm suppose to go back yesterday and suppose to go sw's house tomorrow for our sleepover thingyy... but then i think if i ask my mum whether i can go, she'll be mad.. cause i came baack form singapore then i go carin's house.. and extended till now.. so yeah.. i think i'll try to ask about the hangout okayy guys?! i'll let you guys know as soon as possible.. but i'm sure that the chances won't be high.. so erm.. if i can't go i'm sorry ya.. sorry to someone too.. cause erm... i don't wanna argue with my familyy la... so yeahh...but i think i don't wanna go hangout la.. cause erm.. i wanna spend sometime with my familyy.. but i'll see first la okayy... i'll try la.. hmmm.. but i think my dad will be angryy.. or my mum.. but then.. i wanna be home for once god sake..i miss home.. alwyas thought that going out of home will be so fun.. but i miss home.. i miss golfing with them.. i mostlyy miss my
CADDYYY!!! i heard that he had a
food poisoning... and i also miss my other
CADDYY.. which will scold me soon one.. hmph... so yeah.. once go back it's home sweet home.. and now my sister know's my new blog link.. i guess she've read the camera problem?! i hope not... i'm so dead if she read.. or if she finds out... so yeah...
Last night, Carin and I kept on talking about problems (: not really problems.. but then.. about love, friendship and love. haha.. carin and i took alot of photo's too (: in her phone now.. so yyeah.. we slept in the tv room... cause we talk,take,talk,take.. till 3:40.. onlyy we slept.. so yeah.. now i have one big problem!! which Carin, i hope you can help me!!... i need shirt now!! i have no shirt adi!! arh.. 44444444....
I WANNA GO HOME.. HUG MY DADDYY,MY MUMMYY.. and I WANNA KACAU MY SISTER (: AND HUG MY "BROTHER BEAR" HEHE.. which last time i used to call him brother bear.. cause the show, last time we used to love to watch it.. and then erm.. last time he was kindaa nice to hug.. like the bear.. so my dad sent me an email saying:" ashley, why are you fighting with brother bear?" i still remembered that... i think i still kept it.. whenever i just argued with my familyy, i always look back at those emails.. and i kept laughing about it.. and i forgot that we've argued.. and act like everything is normal.. so now. i know how to control myself.. how to be happy again.. how to be me again (: i won't get angry of them over some matter.. i just wanna be the old Ashleyy.. which doesn't know the meaning of love, life complicated, friendship problem... i wanna be Her again.. she was so good in something(can't say) but not now.. and now her parents even says that.. and now.. she's going back to back.. being HER again.. People changed right?! but.. i've changed so much that even my family members can't accpet me.. and now i know whyy..i always argue with them.. and always think that i'm adopted... but actually the real reason is that
I'VE CHANGED SO MUCH!!... and I'M SO SO SO SO SORRY.. how the way i've been acting..
A new year is coming right?! so does a new girl is coming..
As the year is coming to an end,
every relationships,
seem to just end like how the year end,
forgeting about everything,
and start a fresh new relationship...
As 2009 is coming,
There would be
New year,
New school,
New friends,
New life,
New dramas
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
4:19 AM
