Thursday, January 1, 2009
If i had one wish, i wish you next to me cause you make my heart sing
Heyy.. 2009 will be great, but i just realize that it won't be a great one for me.. yesterday, one of my friend misunderstood who i was writing too.. so well, i guess we ain't that close adi.. and poeple, i'll be schooling in bu3 for one week onlyy... then i've gotta say goodbye.. so if i've made new friends.. i'm sorry i gotta leave so fast..
The first day of 2009 was ruined adi.. by my sickness... it's so difficult to enjoy my new life now.. cause it really hurts.. all i can do is just vomit.. and now, my legs suddenly hurts..hurt till i feel like my leg have to be chopped off.. i don't know what kind of sickness i'm having but.. i have this feeling that it won't recover..
You deserve her.. tell her how you feel towards her.. you should have told me last time.. you shouldn't hide it.. you cant force yourself to love someone you don't love.. i would understand if you told me the truth.. if you keep hiding it.. and i found out from one of your friend, isn't it so hurtful?! i know you think how i would feel.. but if you look, you tell the truth better than me finding out. what if i like another person and then i hide it.. and be with you.. and then you found out.. then you just shut up.. and hten the very next day, i told someone to tell you how i feel towards that guy.. what would you feel?! Ohyeah.. you shouldn't ask someone to tell me.. you should tell me yourself.. if i told someone to tell you that i love another guy.. how would you feel? but all i can say is that thank you for being with me for these 1 year 8 months and 4 days.. it was lovely to have someone beside me...when i'm scared to face the trouble alone.. thank you for those times.. but.. i don't want you to be sad ya.. so next time tell the truth.. be happy.. don't hurt yourself just because you don't wanna hurt others.. think about yourself first then you think back... then you must tell yourself.. or rather ask yourself.. whether it's the best?? or it's better off this way.. you have to listen to your heart.. not your friends, your mind, your mum, your brother, your cousin or whoever..okay.. i won't talk to you much about this.. cause you seldom see blogs or whatever.. i just wanna tell you from my heart that.. you deserve her and she deserve youu (:
Ashley currently hates the 1st day of 2009
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
7:00 PM
