Just one last dance before we say goodbye.. is it okay with you? Now i know that love isn't an ordinary thing.. It's so sweet to see you have really strong feelings for her.. the message you sent to her.. it's so sweet.. i'll be supporting you all the way okay?!

As i talked to you, i have this weird feeling.. but you just kept talking about something else. that really mades me hate me so badly.. I've tried to do everything to think that everything is okayy. that i fit in.. that i accpet the fact you've moved on.. but every single day, there'll be a time which someone or something made me feel like i don't fit in nor moved on..

Today was the swimming gala..omg.. damn tiring man.. i got 2 medals out of 6 events!! that sucked lots..i got sliver for 25m medally relay...after the medally relayy.. everyone was like hugging me.. i mean the team the three of them.. while waiting for the medals to be given.. cause someone told imaan that we got 1st.. and then.. they said it was because of me?! okayy.. totaly akward. but end up.. we got 2nd.. no idea whyy..then after break i had 50m butterfly.. it was a last minute thing.. so while waiting for the butterfly event, DK was like:" Ashley you better get 2nd" haha.. yeahh. i got second from the bottom!so then right after that. it was 50m freestyle!!and i hate it!!! i got last!! and you know why? my goggles came out..!! gosh!! damn those goggles!so yeahh.. then right after freestyle was medally i think.. and i had to do butterflyy!!! and i think i slow the team down.. but still got 3rd.. yippee!.. then right after that was the freestyle relay.. it was Astrea who was suppose to do it. but then.. she was tired.. so i took her place..so we got last.. well.. what can we do.. India wasn't feeling well.. Rizuko was great.. i was abit pumped out!! and was the first swimmer.. and Issabelle did great!!! so well.. i totally sucked! and then right after that.. i got to rest for like 3 minutes onlyy... then i need to go for the 8 times 50 m relay.. well.. we could have got like 2nd but the first swimmer.!! suddenly she swim back with backstroke!! "hack sei yan" arh!! so yeahh.. and after all those.. finally i get to rest.. well.. cause it ended.. haha! then when i came back.. my brother was like:" ashley why you do so many?" haha.. totaly i took part in 6 events.. non-stop ones.. haha.. i almost fainted man!!!and then while we were sitting in our house tents.. Rizuko was like:" ASHLEY! you did great.. you didn't let our team down.." and then she whispered to herself that it's her last swimming gala.. so i asked her.. and she's leaving soon!! awww!!!

You make it so hard for me to talk to youu.. everytime.. it's like that girl here and there.. if you already know how i feel.. and what's the explaination about this?omg!! you are killing me!! you are killing my life!!! you are making me worst!! Damn the time we had.. DAMN YOU 28th MAY! damn youu!!! YOU SUCK!!!!