Monday, May 18, 2009
I just feel scared again
The world suddenly feels like it's all coming to an end, like my life.. There's something about this feeling.. I cried and cried, wondering, where is the shoulder i need now.. Wondering who can i talk to.. I'm scared of this world now, I'm scared of everything.. I'm scared of lonliness.. I'm scared of crying.. ; She'sscaredthatitwouldhappentoheragain
Heyy! it's a MONDAY! nothing big.Just the start of the week.. well, Monday always passes fast.. erm. todayy wasn't really my day.. erm.. in the morning.. i injured my ankle..i didn't. it jsut suddenly hurt.. and yeahh.. and then i was being really crazy.. saying craps that made dk worried so much.. which i almost tear too.. and i dont know why..bla bla bla.. maths. i thought Flora left me.. haha! and i was like Flora oh flora.. in the changing room the whole time.. and she wasn't there.. as i wanted to leave, flora came in! (: yippee.. out we go =) erm.. then.. it was break.. not so high..only faria's lunch box.. made me high..and tim's strawberries.. haha! yeahh. after that english.. Ms. Brooks love Natisha's and my poem! we rule (: haha! erm.. mandarin.. nothng much happen.. Dash wasn't here.. it was so boring! i was like.. sititng alone =( erm lunch.. i tried to skip the detension.. but when i was at Flora's locker,so happen all theboys came down from detension and they started crapping loads.. and i was like:" OH..! Shoot! i totally forgot about it!! shoot!" and i went up with flora.. suprisingly, she didn't scold me.. erm.. then she went out of the class and flora, michelle, sasha,ainaa came in.. haha! the bell rang.. and of to music.. michelle, stop touching me man!!
So after music, dk looked kindaa down and all.. but i was high.. and on the bus i was really high!! erm.. i asked Lateef to ask Faria out.. haha! he told it was a dare, but it wasn't!! urghh!! so he did it.. damn youu! haha! i was so mean to lateef.. asking him to tell me his top 5! hahaha! Ken stop being so sensitive!! you are worst than a girl.. it's just a stupid shoe! goshh!! stupid shit dude guy! get a freaking life!!
Colour world=)
My heart beating really fast..
Like i'm scared to go to school tomorrow..
Something is not right with me
I need a shoulder now! =(
So yeahh.. it sucked.. my day pretty sucked! i should shut up with the sucked day!
Apperently, i'm listening to a song that can make me cry now
Ashley feels the pain in her heart
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
9:40 PM
