Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I must stay strong starting from now ;
Did this when cause i was bored. =)
I dont know what to do.. We still have few more months left, but now, i'm already feeling like you are gone.. I dont know how am i gonna stand it when you are actually gone.. I wish i could just give you a hug and never let go ; I'mmgonnamissyouwhenyouaregone
Heyy! wednesday it is..! guess what? nothing's up.. it's a holiday for me.. so erm.. i woke up at 10:40..i was so tired.. cause i slept late.. like really late last night.. hahaa.. (: so erm.. went downtown..erm. nothing much.. erm.. went for golf sales... nothing else.. came back. erm.. used the computer and yeahh..i have nothing to blog today.. just that it was a really boring day..let's put a list why:
Nurlyana isn't in Malaysia, so not online
Faria, same as Nurlyana.
Flora, no idea why
Jess, just chat with her, but she needed to go
Dongkuk, wasn't online
Michelle, she never reply whenever i say hey.
Yoo Jin, she seldom online.
Loni, i dont have her MSN email.
I basically have no one to chat, talk or get hyper with. I wait and wait.. still no one.. and ended up getting yelled at. saying that i spend too much timeon the computer when it's just for an hour. But yet, because i wanna chat to you guys, i wait and being stubborn.. There's so many things i wish i could do during this long weekend.. I wish i can get the hell out of the house. Yes, i went out today.. But what i meant was that i wish i could go out with my friends and everything.. but everyone is busy.. and i tried to make myself busy when i ended up being crazy, shedding tears that i can't stop. i dont know what's wrong with me now a days. Last night, i was crazy. My sister said i went crazy.. and Crazy not like in school crazy. Crazy because i was actually sad. Sad that i went crazy, suddenly just laughing my ass off when nothing was happening, suddenly i start tearing, suddenly i started laughing again.. When will i stop this crazy thinng??When? I wish i could just tell myself that it isn't over yet, that there is still time, still time to spend with you, still time to make me feel loved, make me crazy over you, make me just happy, make me skip a heart beat. I wish this would never end. but that would be imposible ;
Colour time yeah?Guess it's a boring start for the long weekends;
Guess that something in my past is spoiling my present;
SHOOTYY! tomorrow is 28th.
28, remember?? oh goshhh...
The past, it's haunting me.. I try to just not think about it and look towards the future. But i can't. It just comes up to my mind everytime. Pass few days, i've been really weird, and i guess it is because of my past.. I tried to forget about it and try to just move on, the past is the past, the future will be the future, the present, will be what is happening now. And guess what? i dont even knwo what i'm talking about now. I'm just all going crazy depression i guess.. I need Faria's chill pill, I need Nurlyana random-ness, I need to be all crazyy!!
When I push you away
Can't you see I still love you?
Can't you tell by the way
My eyes still light up when I see you?
It's just that I'm scared to believe that
My heart could break when you leave
I'm trying not to love you
Trying not to care
Trying not to imagine life
Without you there
In my dreams you're fading
I think my heart must be breaking
You mean more to me
Than I'd care or dare to admit
You're stealing my heart
I'm letting go bit by bit
And I'm hoping, wishing, praying that you stay
Though I know wishful thinking isn't the best way to be
Trying not to love you
Trying not to care
Trying not to imagine life
Without you there
In my dreams you're fading
I think my heart must be breaking
I have to admit
Part of me thinks
It would be easier just to fall
But if I fall
I could break
Would I stand a chance at all?
In trying not to love you
Trying not to care
Trying not to imagine life
Without you there
In my dreams you're fading
I think my heart must be breaking
Breaking, breaking, breaking.
Some songs i've found due to my situation..
Webbyyy!
Linkyy!
Clickyyhere!
Click on those links.. The first one is a love notes.. Listen to it closely, it's so meaningful!! it made me tear..! Guess what just happened? my sister was like:" do not listen to me about those sick stuff, my mum asks where you learn from, and you say from amy, i tell you! You die! NO MORE PUPPY FOR YOU" what the hack.. where did the puppy come up.. ahha!!! sudddenly she just says no more puppy for you. hahaha!
Apperently, Barcelona will kick MANU ass in the finals =)
Ashley says it's 12:28am!
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
11:27 PM
Did this when cause i was bored. =)