Monday, June 1, 2009
There's always a friend there for me, I'm greatful that i have friends like you (:
AshleyyyN <3> *but when we are alone *we have nothing to talk about *but to stare at each other *feeling the love *it sounds so nice *sweet *romantic *but..
Sien Wei (: says (5:28 PM): *you think of yf, right ?
AshleyyyN <3> *no.. *i mean.. *yes *but not all the time *i mean *cause *yf always use to be with me *i mean *like. *he *was funny *and all *but dk, *it's different *there's so many things to say
Sien Wei (: says (5:30 PM): *maybe you are used to it having yf by your side ? one year relationship is really long tho. i can understand why you cant let it go till now. (:
AshleyyyN <3> *i'm over yf.. yes i am. seriously.. but.. he keeps coming up to my mind.. this only happens when may 28th just went pass..
AshleyyyN <3> *how we got together *i mean *'m being mean to dk *cause *oh, i dont know
Sien Wei (: says (5:32 PM): *may 28th, (:
AshleyyyN <3> *yes..
Sien Wei (: says (5:32 PM): *guess what ? everything reminds me of ben jing when may18th pass *and yesterday he just remind of something else. the card. *sigh*
Sien Wei (: says (5:33 PM): *so many things happen in may. *we are facing the same thing
AshleyyyN <3> *i tried to stay storng.when may 28 was coming. the pass few weeks before may 28th, my mood, have been really realy down.. dk asked me whether everything was alright, i said yea.. not wanting him to be worried.. but i cant lie forever. i told him that my pass seems to come back to me.. and he told me to look at the future, not the pass.. i think he knows about yf.. i'm not sure. i'm scared to tell dk this. i'm scared.. i'm really really scared to fall in love too. but i'm in love now..
Sien Wei (: says (5:37 PM): *im scared for may18th to come and you know on that day, i made myself smile cause i know he wont want me to be sad. i made myself strong too. since you are, since you made this decission then go for it! you guys were so happy together, i dont know about him but i know you were. *the happy and joyful face i saw that day during my open day was the sweetest smile and laugh i ever seen on your face this year . you know ?
AshleyyyN <3> *yours still cares for you, talk to you, mine.. we dont even chat.. i try to go strong on may 28.. and lucky i was off.. i didnt had school.. if not, i would just breaking my heart *seriously? haha. dont lie
Sien Wei (: says (5:40 PM): *serious! in my heart that day i was like, ashley made the right choice and make herself HER again. (:
Sien Wei (: says (5:41 PM): *he dont talk to me unless im online. yours is much cool then mine. get it ? he wont even talk unless you start but mine is a diffrent personality guy. *yf and siah ben jing is totally a diffrent guy man. (:
AshleyyyN <3> *yes, i've made the right choice.. but come and think again, i think i didn't. if i just known, he was leaving earlier, i would try not to fall in love with him, but now, i'm madly deeply in love with him, and his leaving.. whenever i love someone so much, i give my heart into it.. i ended up being heart broken cause they leave me.. is it me? is it them? i always get this question going on in my head.. when will i actually get to see him again? i keep asking myself that when he told me he is gonna leave.
Sien Wei (: says (5:45 PM): *if you guys can get together means you guys have fade between each other, if fade dose remind you guys definitely will see each other again. his leaving dosent mean that relationship have to stop right ? he might NOT want a long distance relationship but again he might continue. (: things will never know. life is never a fairytale no happy ever after, so is not both of your fault. *maybe this is waht they call life? (:
AshleyyyN <3> *i know, yes.. we might see each other again, if his mum allows.. The relationship to him, he wants to stop, he told his friend he might end it.. and i heard "i will" what is it now? a broken hearte girl.. yes, i'm too young for love and everything, but I'M IN LOVE.. life, that's one thing i can say, it's nice, fun, sad, annoying.. but whenever it comes to love, it's far more worst, so why am i in love? why the hell do i fall inlove so fast? why??i told myself just that time, try not to fall and break again, cause i know out there, it's hard to find the one that can bring me up.. so why am i IN LOVE?
Sien Wei (: says (5:52 PM): *you are in love because you ARE how can you stop that ? how can you stop yourself for being IN LOVE ? things could change right? you have another 7 months? if you're sure he's leaving, then why not spend every moment with him? and get ready for it ? if you dont wana let go this relationship again then why not tell him ? let him know how you feel, tell him you are afraid. give it a try ?
AshleyyyN <3> *i dont know *i'm having so many confuse feelings
Sien Wei (: says (5:59 PM): *maybe cause you havent sort things out ? try telling him first and we'll see how it goes. (:
Here is a conversation between Sienwei and I.. so erm.. yeahh.. (: Dont have to understand.. i just felt like putting it up here.!
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
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