Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Cause I know it's more than that ;
& I thought you would support my idea ;Hey hey hey! (: Today was okay. I dont wanna blog much cause I'm not really in the mood. Well, SORRY MICHELLE for the water splashing and deserved that. I didn't really mean to. It was meant to like hold back. but. i guess, too hard.=/ sorry. We laughed loads today too ((:
Ohhh Myyyyyyy Gravyyyyyyy Godddddddddddddd!
Volleyball tomorrow.
Practice on Thursday.Might have sleepover on Thursday.Go to school and practice more on Friday. Go have birthday dinner with Carin on Friday.Have a sleepover at Carin's place.Try to find time to practice more on Saturday.Audition On Sunday.Dinner on Sunday.Badminton on Monday.!It's such a busy week. it's so ahhhh.
I keep recalling you asking me whether i could sing. It felt like an insult. You said i had to choose and can't have everything, i understand. Why don't you see that this audition, is for me to try out new things. You ask me to try out new things, and now.. you just say not to go and stuff. All my life, I've been trying to please you. But i fail. cause i suck in everything. studies. look at me. Maths=Set 5. Science=Always fail. What next? I know i suck in studies okay. I know I'm so dumb compare to the others at home here. It got me wondering why dont you see that i really would like to try out for this audition? If i dont get in, it's okay. You say i can't sing, I can't dance either can i act. You haven't heard me or seen me doing those stuff before... Trying so hard to reach my goals, yet can't Trying so hard to be good in everything, yet fail. Trying so hard to proof to you that I'm not everything you've ever imagine.
I was so down, lucky a video cheered me up ((: But, I'm still kinda down. :((((
Apparently, I wish that everything would be fine ;Ashley wanna sleep to be a wake for tryouts.
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
10:47 PM
