"Looking at the rain drops. Looking at the sky as how it starts to cry. Looking at the wind blowing so hard like it's angry. Looking at the trees swaying like they are dancing through that pain their suffering. Every drop, every tear. means something. That day, rain rushing down, angry wind howling loudly, tress shed a tear, grasses tried to be strong. It was a sad feeling that day. I was thinking about how we used to be such good friends, how me and him used to tease each other, how I used to run around the school, how i remembered every sweet moments, how all the drama started, how people used to hate me, how every second with you is important. Now looking back at it, i'm starting to miss everything back then. Looking at you, chatting with you, you sounded so hurt. Yes you are, but i just want you to know that please do not hide all the suffering pain in you, you know I'll always be there for you like how you were when i needed you."


Hey there! (: it's been a while since I've updated. I know i know i know. I've been so busy. I've been so busy thinking about GCSE subjects. Oh how i wish they would stop pressuring me to take a subject they want and not what i want. Oh how i wish i could get up and be strong to let them know.


ANYWAY, On Monday, nothing much happened, badminton sucks like hell. On tuesday, nothing much either. On wednesday, it rained like hell.! My whole P.E bag got wet. :( ohhh. and i got moved up for Netball. still can't believe Ainaa and Kat didn't move up. they are quite good you know. anyway, stayed back.. went to art block. (: fun fun fun! (: On thursday, which is today.. I didn't go to school cause i couldn't wake up! It felt like i was drugged. seriously. OMG! so i woke up, cause of stupid noises! anyway, woke up continued reading my book. and I CRIED. NURLYANA. the book is so so so so SAD!!! and Faria, I'm already reading quite fast okaay. 2 hours.. like. reached up to 200 pages =P hhahaa.!! =)))))



Would you do me a favor? Would you promise me that you are gonna be alright?

I really wanna go back to the times when i last saw you, when we were together. When i remembered you not helping me in anything. that thought me to be strong. I really wanna go back to the time when we always wake up in the morning and start moaning about how boring and shitty the teachers are gonna be today. I wanna go back to the time when one day, we were all excited to wear the robe but soon broke down into tears. Oh, i dont want things to change so fast. Time passes so fast, and i don't know what's up with me lately. Blink of an eye, everything, everyone i once knew seem to grow so fast, change so much. but not me.. I really need someone now :'(


Apparently, I'm crying my heart out.

xoxo
ashleylicious