Sunday, January 3, 2010
And now, all that I ever held dear is just a memory ;
*2009, Penang*
"Falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful."Hey there people. As you know, I'm still in depression mood.!! I am! I'm having serious trouble here.!! Hm. Tomorrow is a Monday, time to go back to school for locals. and time for me to finally get my hair cut!! OMG! I just realized how old my brother is already : '( everything is going too fast. it's like.. In July, sister going to Aus, and sometime, my brother going US. That just leaves my other brother and I. : '( Ahh! : '( dsjkfnh! this is what i hate most.!! ahhhh.. I don't know what's with me, but I seem to start crying again!! what am i gonna do floraaaaa.??!?!? or somebody!
I have no mood to blog, i have no mood to do homework. I have no mood to do house chores. I have no mood to help my sister. I have no mood to talk. I have no mood to chat on MSN. I have no mood to even talk to YOU. I have no mood to plan the reunion . I have no mood to say hello. I have no mood to slam the door. I have no mood to argue with my sister. I have no mood to watch tv. I have no mood to clean my room. I have no mood to eat. I have no mood to drink. I have no mood to shop. I have no mood to go on Facebook. I have no mood to wonder what is up with facebook not letting me to upload my video. I have no mood to look at the phone when there's a message. I have no mood to pick up the phone. I have no mood to reply your text. I have no mood waiting for you message every single day. I have no mood wondering why aren't we talking. I have no mood to go to school. I have no mood to say goodbye. I have no mood to say goodnight. I have no mood to say i love you.
Yes, I can go on with the " I have no mood" thing. I'm a sad person I know. You readers out there. I know what you are thinking. You think I'm such an EMO person and blah blah blah. Well, let me tell you something. It's not like you guys have ever lost a BEST BEST FRIEND. oh I'm sure you guys will be going like" pssht. I have. I have to switch schools. I have to Graduate and leave my friends" Well people, it's not like they leave the country right! urrgh!!
COLOURS?
The first time my heart was broken I thought I was through; I swore I'd never love again and believe me this was true, but when you walked into my life the second your eyes met mine, I knew you were worth loving, just like before, just like the first time.I cry because I know he doesn't feel the way I do. I cry because I think of how pathetic I am, and I cry because I think I'll be crying forever.A million words wouldn't bring you back. I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears. I know because I've cried!Life and love are like hide and seek. People spend their whole lives looking for love, but when they finally forget to look for it, they find it.I know. it's like I'm so broken and sad. WELL, I AM okay.! I MISS YOU NURLYANAAAAA! ahh! : '(
Apparently, I wish i could go with you
Ashley wishes that this feeling would stop!
Ashley signing off
tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
10:22 PM
*2009, Penang*