Friday, January 8, 2010
Everything takes time ;
*2009, Halloween*(we miss you, our little rockstar(:)
"It's such a heartbreak seeing youu"Hey there people. Today, Friday. Second day of school. Wow.. & it's still not really working out! Last night again, I cried myself to sleep, wishing that all these sad moments was just another nightmare of mine. In the end, obviously i manage to sleep. Again, calming myself down by hugging the bear.
This morning, i woke up late as i was crying so much, i forgot to set my alarm. So went on the bus, I was feeling sad again. Oh.. this sucks badly.. I turned on my Ipod and start listening to it to get my mind off stuff again. On the waay to school after all the stop, i suddenly just starting crying, looking out the window and thinking... Why now? The sky was gloomy again.. I calmed myself down again.. and tired to sleep. But i couldn't. Our bus went pass Nurlyana's and I looked inside, Nurlyana wasn't there. I sighed again and looked out the window and turned my music louder. I've never ever listened to my music that loud before. Oh, I'm going under depression again.
Nothing happened after that. It was Malay first lesson. It wasn't that bad until Ms.Nice gotta ask everyone what we did during the holidays. & I told her how much fun i had with Nurlyana in Penang and New years eve.. I was sad again. it started to rain then. Don't worry, I cheered myself up. and I know that Nurlyana would know how. haha. I was being so sick. Michelle asked liquid paper from Eu Chian and He asked Do you want the wet one or the dry one. Yes, it was sick. Ken and I started laughing so muuch. but Eu Chian & Michelle didn't get it. I was surprised Michelle didn't get it. It took her like 2 minutes to realized what we were laughing about.
It was break and it was hell windy. I was trying to fly. Fly to wherever. It was so cold..I embarrassed myself by shouting something so loud in front of the stuff office and a teacher came out and looked at me in a weird way. According to Loni, Mr.Robson was behind us and heard and like looked at me at the WTF looked. Oh, how i wish Nurlyana was there... It was Science next. It wasnt that bad. Okay then Mandarin. Urgh so BORING!! Then lunch. Thierry got into trouble. i'm sorry. =/ Flora ate lke most of the food when i payed for it and she had her own food. that girl!
It was Maths next. the JOY much.!! as usual it was boring. but then we started talking about food. and Mr.D was like saying he eats one hamburger a week. something like that. and Faria goes like, I like vegetables...and before the lesson ended, we stood behind our chairs and Max was talking to Shawn about his Lego card thingy. They(max, raff) tricked Shawn by saying that they had pokemon driving card. soemthing like that.I wish I can sit next to Faria and I wish Nurlyana moves back to our class!:'( Then it was English. We continued watching Macbeth. it was boring! well, some parts are interesting and disgusting.. but so far, B-O-R-I-N-G! !
On the bus, it was hell sick. I forgot how the topic came about. But i wished Lateef would be there and Nurlyana. And I know Nurlyana would go like"Oh guys! What have Flora got you guys into?!" aw : '( i miss her! Nurlyana, Our family is screwed up. Well, I am!!! & Faria said that she lovessssssssssss you so much and misses you soooooooooooooooooooooo MUCH! On the bus, I was like trying to lie down on the chairs and just so happened that the bus like breaks and i made a sound and Ken thought i was having sex. wtf!! sabiha was also in this conversation just to let you know so as Hasiq(not sure about his spelling). Nurlyana, new kid. Hasiq. he's a cool dude i think. He's kinda sick too.. (:
It's so saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad! I'm soooooooooo hungry now a days on the bus.!! Lateef, I miss you giving me food =P Navin just gives me craap.! Nurlyana, I misssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss visiting the titanic.!!! : '( I was going to go there, but was too busy.!! I misssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss the girl who bosses people around. Nurlyana, somebody changed ever since you left. I mean. ah. You might not say so... but hm. to me, she did. Tell you on Msn if I go on the same time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanna go Ice-skating again! With you! Faria wants too. I told her that she has to let go of the railing and she said she will. COME!!! : '(
Colours.
I loveeeeeeeee youuuu
I miss youuuuu
Come back to KL, Nurlyana.
I may be hyper, I may be happy, I may be cheerful, i may be crazy. But there's something missing. YOU. YOU. YOU. YOU.! YOU! You know who you are, YES You Nurlyana..!! There's no one to stop me. There's no one to hit me to shut up. I know i should stop all the sadness. but where else can i express my feelings?!?!? I don't want to keep this pain in forever.. I'm sorry if i make you cry =/ Cause I myself cry too. Cry every night thinking.. Thinking about the good memories. As i am typing this, I'm crying... The photo frame and the picture inside from the LG Competition just makes me sad.! I miss you so much. I miss your waffle hoodie. : '(
Apparently, I'm dying so much
Ashley wants you right by her now.=/
Ashley signing off
tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
4:46 PM
*2009, Halloween*(we miss you, our little rockstar(:)