Sunday, February 14, 2010
Give me faith ;
*2010, Boston dinner*
"All i want to do is to get rid of this guilt I'm having inside me"Hey hey hey hey! Not sure what time will BLOGGER put it. like which day. So to let you guys know, it's 12:53 now. and It's 14th of february. yes. Valentines day. Not just that but YELLOW NEW YEAR and one more day left till I'm turning a year older. Time passes just so fast. Well, thanks people for the early wishes.
I'll talk about yesterday. since it's already a brand new day. So yesterday, I woke up.. went out to eat. came back. went shopping. came back. Just thinking how we used to decorate our house and now like no one wants to do it. and how much we used to be so into everything. the cleaning, the fun in cleaning. the fun in cooking. This year, we went out to eat instead. During dinner it just got me thinking about her. She would be next to me now.. Having dinner with us. : '( So went came back, my dad says he misses the chili we used to make on Chinese new year.. Everything was so different. EVERYTHING! I ran up to my room, locked myself in and started crying. I know, I know. That's not what Chinese New Year is suppose to be.. but. I everything is slowly changing and I've not let go of her yet, I've not tell my mind that i have to move on.
ANYWAY, my siblings managed to get it out of my mind for a while. We played some games. I was crazy. I was known as the retarded person. Haha. It was so much fun.. When my parents had to leave to send their friend back, we all stopped the game. Everything was boring again. So happened that it was 12 and i started receiving texts. sadly, ahem ahem slept. oh well...
now I'm so tired.
Okay, Honestly, you've changed. I don't know why.. but you did. I'm serious.. Why cant you see that? Oh wait, you've noticed but.. hm.. oh i don't know.
I'm tired and I wanna get some sleep for tomorrow's party. no wait. TODAY'S. as it's past 12. ahha!
Apparently, I'm not in a happy mood: '(Ashley loves seeing relatives =P
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
12:32 AM
*2010, Boston dinner*