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Tuesday, March 9, 2010

*Halloween 2009*

"I tried to tell myself it's over, but i couldn't get over the fact.."

Hey hey hey! (: I'm blogging early today cause i have a feeling that i might be sleeping early today. I wanted to blog jsut now, real badly. But the usual, something came and just changed my mood. I'm having so much mood swings : '( Things have been tough lately for me.. I just need some time..

ANYWAY, today.. It's a Tuesday, as you guys know.. hmm.. Games was first, nothing much. Break. Nothing much. Science, awesome flame experiment. Music, awesome. Lunch, it was the usual. Ict, boring. Maths, HELL boring. Cardio, boring, a little funny.. Bus ride home, kinda sad and tired. came home, sadness.. tired. The funny thing is that, my mom made"kaya" and i was so hungry, my mom and I like took the bread and wipe off the remainder off the pot. We look like we haven't eaten for ages and we looked so so so desperate for food. haha. Came up, took a shower.. LONG shower.. and here i am. Crying in front of the computer, like I'm a mad person.. I'm sad, I'm mad, I'm depressed, I'm confused.. I've been crying for a week now, why can't i stop it? Other people can manage it, why can't i?

I promised myself I'll be strong to over calm this. Yes, I'm trying to, but i just can't be strong. I'm not that strong type of person, I'm a sensitive, emotional girl.. I want to get over this thing I'm having. I wanna be a strong person, like how i used to be when i was young. How i wish I was that small little girl again. Life was so much easier back then, so much more fun, so much excitement.. Here we go again, being all depressed. I tried asking someone to slap me out of this, but it ain't work. It does, but only for 2 minutes or so.

"Oh my dear heart, please heal this pain as soon as possible. I don't want to carrying this around and then you just sink back whenever I think about him, her, you, them. Oh my heart, oh my heart.. Please bring back the old Ashley back. :'( "

*will update later if I want to*

Apparently, I'm lost. =/

Ashley wants time to be back in 2002

Ashley signing off

Tata

xoxo ashleylicious

6:20 PM