Wednesday, March 10, 2010
"It's late, I'm awake, thinking, how all of these went wrong. I can't sleep. Not cause I'm not tired, cause I've been feeling so much pain, guilt and all. I've been crying and crying. My heart, it feels like there's a hole in it. Every time i think about it, it makes it worst. Like washing a cut. I was on the tv just now, a song came up. I was basically almost gonna cry, but i held back my tears. It was shameful of me to cry in front of my family. I've tried and tried and tried. I thought it's the best to balst my feelings out here. I don't know how to control my feelings anymore, i wonder why. No pne seem to really understand what happened. Trying to explain to my closest friend, she' can't really understand it as she's not in this school. Trying to explain to someone in my school, yes, some of them do understand. But all i really need now is a hug. A long hug. Cause i really really need it badly. :'( "
10:31 PM
