Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Nothing stays forever ;
"Where are you now when i need you best?"Hey hey hey. Today was just another day with exams! so nothing i can blog about. The hall was cold. Oh well whatever. (:
" It seems alright. I sit and stare, wondering. My heart sank. Alone i sat by myself thinking whether I'm invisible. It hurts so much. Every single minute, hour. I'm thinking to myself why must i pretend that everything's alright when it's not? Why? I know you guys won't get what I'm trying to say here, but if you do, I'm sure you don't get the same feeling as I am. Ever since you left. Things changed. People changed, maybe me. It hurts so much that people seem to talk to me only when you're coming back. If you're saying I'm just sensitive, I know I am. My heart is weak I know. But what can i do ? No one seem to care either. On the other hand, you always have to be right even though you're wrong. I'm tried of arguing, letting you "win" all the time. It really hurts so much that I don't know how to explain this in words. I've cried enough. I've got enough issues, but day by day, more issues seem to appear right in front of me. I'm sick of it. Yes I am. I'm very tired of everything. As i walked alone, thinking once again, soon tears gathered in my eyes. Slowly wiping my tears away, I looked around and wonder what am I doing here. It seems like no one likes me no more. No matter how hard I've tried to do something , something worst will just sweep me off my feet again. All I want now is a long hug, someone telling me it's gonna be alright. "
Apparently, me sick of crying so much :'(
Ashley misses you :(
Ashley signing off
Tata
xoxo
ashleylicious
6:49 PM
