hey there! (: So today is kinda a boring day. Faria wasn't in school today. Mandarin was so boring. Break was really boring. History was boring. Had a good mark and happy with it. Science was boring. Lunch was boring. English was super boring. Games was fun. I'm really sorry Jess for hurting you. =/ I didn't mean to. Bus ride was boring. Adrian kept annoying me! Sent Adrian home and came home. Showered and all. Waited for my mom to come back to take me to the dentist. Waited till 5 something, she finally came back but she was injured as a golf ball hit her when she was playing. and apparently whoever hit that ball didn't come and apologize! so waited for my dad to take his shower then off to the dentist. Dentist said end of this moth braces off! (: came home and watched American Idol. Aaron Kelly went out. Had dinner and homework.

What am i gonna do now? Trying when i know it's useless. Crying when i know it's stupid. Pretending when i know it's a fail. Why pretend to be strong? Why pretend to be someone else? Why pretend that you didn't hurt my feelings?

"Why keep comparing me when you know I'm not as good as them? Why still bring it up when you know you've got me? You know.. No wait, you don't. You don't know how I'm feeling. One word. Hurt. It really hurts when you compare me, when you say I'm not good enough, when you think i'm always wrong when i'm right, when you yell at me cause i didn't do what you said, when you listen to them more rather than me. I'm just trying to be the best. Trying to be all that. All that you have listed out, compared me to them. I'm trying to be them and less like me. How is that right?"

I'm being all crazy again lately, I need time,but I need friends as well, I need hugs. =/ Flora & Michelle & Faria, I need your hugs. Michelle, get back as soon as possible please.