Hey there. Sorry for not updating for long. I've been a little busy. Having some family bonding time and all. Guess what? I got a godmother and I have no clue how this happen. I mean, I actually do but it's such a news. I mean like.. out of the blue, she asked me to be her goddaughter. haha. Well, the story is simple. Mom didn't have enough players to play. As in play I meant golf. So i agreed to tag along. I was worrying so much as my mom said that her friend is such a pro. So yes, she is ! But she was so nice. haha, she was amazed with my first shot. and I've made mistakes and she guided me. So yeah. She's a nice lady.(: and Just today, she text-ed my mom and asking that question. so yeah. She said she'll take me to golf tournaments. I was thrilled when i heard that but i don't have time. Which really sucks.! =/ oh well. Anyways, so today is Monday. Well, it's Tuesday already as it's 12:50 and yeah. Guess what? Taking my braces off today! Since it's Tuesday already. Was suppose to take it off last Thursday but the dentist gotta run for his important meeting. So yeah. yippy-doo! (:

Oh, I was so obsessed with pandas lately, mom got me a panda shirt and and and Snoopy ! (: So cuuute. Oh gosh, I've just realized that I still have my homework to do. What part of HOLIDAY do the teachers don't get.? Holiday means to rest man. Duuude, we students do need a rest too. You were a student once. You should know how it feels like. Oh god damn it, i've jut realized AGAIN. That my Mandarin GCSE is around the corner. If I'm not mistaken it's on the 2nd week of school. As in after we get back lah. Damn it, and you know I'm not used going to school without a watch. Cause i used to have one. but the battery died. How sad is that. But hey, Cheap stuff. I'm a cheapskate person, can't help it. Oh damn it. I gotta stop doing this. like remembering stuff suddenly. Anyways, Tim & I haven't gotten our Rm120 for Chiang Mai. So screwed! So god damn screwed! Gaah, this is not a good time to get all freaked out. It's the middle of the night. Ashley, you better get ready for some weird crazy dreams tonight then. Oh gosh, look. I'm so freaked out that I'm even talking to myself. ha. I think I'm seriously going crazy now.

"On that rainy day. I stared out the car window, looked at the raindrops running down the window as it joins up with another raindrop and form a shape. It was a cold night. My heart was cold as well. I looked pass through the raindrops. Seeing two young teenagers with a plastic bag over their head using it as an umbrella. As they held on to the plastic bag over their head, they ran across the street. Getting to the nearest shelter. My heart beat started rising. Looking at those two best friends, going through this together. Weirdly, they weren't even angry or sad as they got to the shelter. They laughed about how silly they were. Using only a plastic bag as an umbrella for two people. How my heart ached seeing them. Seeing how friendships now has got me thinking so hard, how much i've missed everything, everyone. I know, it's too late to go back. The only thing that I'm happy is how much memories we all have as a friend, how much i had with you guys, yet.. I'm giving up on trying to fix things as I've tried so much. Sorry. One word. Easy to say, but not easy to say with a meaning to it. Forgiven. One word as well. It's difficult. Well, i know it won't do anything, but I'm here to say sorry to everyone. I'm sorry,Nurlyana. I'm sorry, Ainaa. I'm sorry,Michelle. I'm sorry, Faria. I'm sorry,Flora. I know it's about time for me to apologize, hey, it's not easy forgiving yourself either in order to apologize to someone. Guys or rather yet, girlfriends... Together we shall, again, be one crazy, messed up family. Together again, let's make a memory. I love you (: "

ashleylicious