Monday, July 26, 2010
If you ask everything is alright, I would lie and walk away crying. No, everything isn't alright. I didn't know what was going on. Everything went by so fast. So quickly. Even though it wasn't really my problem but it was so painful to see what was happening. I held my tears back. Walked away and started crying. Oh, what had just happened I asked myself. I thought everything was fine. I felt the pain they were going through. I could feel the sadness, anger in them. I laughed it out just to pretend like nothing was wrong. Ignored everything and carried on watching television.
Hey hey hey. (: Hmm. I don't really have much mood to blog today. Today has been a rough day. So erm.. Yeah, I did nothing again. This summer is so boring & messed up. I wanna have sleepovers. I wanna go out. But there's no one to go out with. Everyone in local schools aren't on holidays. Everyone that I'm close with isn't here. Grr. So much for summers. Guess what? I realized I don't have anyone to talk to. How nice heh. What I'm doing now is just blogging and when I can't think of anything to blog, I click on msn and just stare at their names.
No, you're not their to comfort me anymore.
I don't even know why I'm here man. I'm turning all suicidal. Having scary suicidal dreams. Too scared to sleep alone. Too scared to wake up for another day. Even too scared to sleep.
:'(
9:56 PM
